So Ive I'm going to document myself then I need to document everything... Psych Furs... absolutely a Melissa trigger... she made me a mix tape.. and it had Psych Furs on it.. not too mention she was my de facto by extension Redhead girl next door first love... It's really hard not to think about the good & bad shit about all that.. I could get lost in those feelings forever. Especially those good ones... In some ways she was my Molly Ringwald crush realized.. but she was 100000000000000000 times better than I could have imagined.. but then again.. ravenous first times usually leave a mark..
why does the past make me sad.. what are these tears for?? regret.. not that moment.. not in a million years.. i wanted that moment to last forever... i know she's thought about me.. oh that ship has sailed.. she has gone down a dark republican path that I left years ago... why are memories bittersweet...
what is it about myself that processes the past the way I do.. why do I pull on the melancholy string so much... is it because I know (HOLD UP - I don't know) ---- I was going to say something along the lines about being able to recreate my past in a sense of awe and wonder and curiosity and fun that I use to have.. bit the things is.. I have this bullshit detector up 24/7 and if it doesn't match up with certain preconceptions then I quickly dismiss things and poo poo it away... so what I'm trying to do is .......
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