Humanity

 So this...

https://old.reddit.com/r/iamatotalpieceofshit/comments/ry7l13/slapping_a_suicidal_guy_twice_on_camera/

Led to this...

https://www.northjersey.com/story/news/paterson-press/2019/04/02/paterson-cop-roger-then-sentencing-hospital-attack/3339786002/

Led to this...

https://patersontimes.com/2021/06/21/judge-rules-mother-of-man-brutally-attacked-by-two-paterson-police-officers-can-pursue-wrongful-death-case/

My anger at humanity never seems to abate... or is it anger at myself?

My initial reaction is this person should be taken out and shot in public... then take anyone associated with him and drop in a volcano. I may have a bit a of an imagination on this but I'm so conflicted emotionally on this.

I remember being an absolute piece of shit in my 20's... ignorant as fuck and wanting to prove something... I honestly don't think most people have any idea of what they are trying to prove namely due to said ignorance.. but that doesn't stop people (looking at myself) from acting like complete dregs of society... due to lack of awareness of humanity, empathy, and a lack of ones own self awareness.

This is just the tip of the iceberg.. nature/nurture, historical details.. etc...

I hate that I get so worked up on this.. I'm a fucking hypocrite to think I'm any better. Damn you Jesus... blah blah without sin.. cast stone.. blah blah..

I feel like there is something my cognitive biases are preventing me from seeing... Seriously tired of this shit. The more I read, the more it seems that efforts to change beyond parameters is not possible.. but that make me all the more to want to try and break my programming... 

how does one break their programming? 

Do the opposite of what you've been told... now this is going to probably get me into a bit of trouble unless I clarify...

1 - Find something benign... something that won't necessarily get you thrown in jail on a felony... misdemeanors..meh. Then again it's up to you.. you do you.

2 - Disrupt the cycle... now this is the one that I think a lot of people see that razor edge/slippery slope type situation... as doing so could result in serious consequences.. think things through.. will laws be broken.. can I or someone else get hurt... avoid hurting others, mom n pop/family owned businesses... attack the capitalist infrastructure... those in power.. the system itself... overload.. break it.. end this dystopian reality that is.

I know there are others before me who have written about revolution.. about humanity.. about the power structures that are in place... the masses are ignorant... fomo.. psychological warfare is being waged upon an unsuspecting populace... all because... (this seems like I've reached a root cause... but it's not that simple).. there are so many things that need to be put into place...

Angry at humanity... angry at those who oppress us... which sad to say is a majority.

There are too many people to make an effective change in today's society short of a cataclysmic event... this would need to 1 - globally change the number of ignorant people to a mass tipping point...