Is this really the turning point..

I think I've said this previously...like in NC previously.. and GG previously...

I feel like I have made a significant change in my mental attitude about myself and who I am and what I want and how I want to proceed in life. I'm still an introvert but I'm an introvert because I find that most people really aren't worth your time. I know that may rub some people the wrong way, but sadly this is just me maximizing my new found perspectives about life and how I want to live it.

There are a number of things I need to research... especially as it pertains to human behavior and aging.. physiology, psychology, etc.

Is it because I'm one more bad event away from being homeless... I do and don't care. There's a part of me watching the US crumble apart and going it's about time, this country needs an awakening to the 21st Century and it's needs to be brought forth kicking and screaming into reality.

Education needs to be a lynch pin every type of funding an incentive going forward. Education in the heartland about what has happened since 1950. Education in the inner cities on why rules and laws matter & when then are unjust and need to be changed. Education on how to think properly, how to write a coherent sentence.

I think it is here... I continue to have this random thoughts and ideas as of late.. thoughts and ideas of inspiration in one fashion or another... I've a massed a hoard of information and I'm sharpening my skills...this is a slow process.. one that I think has taken me my life to get here (something--something)..

it's the frustration of youth that is screaming in my ear.. the rage and anger of youth that I never knew how to express of convey..  I.. laugh and cry at the absurdity... how small minded we are even as we gain in knowledge...

Oh... Socrates...

I'm feeling happy... despite my panic filled days with no weed... I'm slowly working on things to improve them.. I need to chop chop on the masks job...