conditioning

Waiting... Waiting for hopefully some pizza. Though also thinking about the state of our humanity or specifically mine.  What does it mean to exist, and how we are conditioned from birth to accept this reality presented to us.

I'm at this point in life where I'm able to dissect the moment, the illusion so to speak. Taking apart all that I see in a scientific lens of physics, biology, psychology, etc al. Human behavior, animal behavior, these motivations we are constantly reacting to. The ever present physiological drives in this space time.

The objects we see day to day and have assigned names and meaning to. Though understanding it's all a social construct, there's this feeling of being on the edge of consciousness, this unseen boundary of darkness, a total lack of information to connect to the moment in question. But my thoughts are a cascade conglomeration of prior data input. So making attempts for data integrity checks has me questioning still. 

So tired... Physically tiring day.