fools errand

If I see it as one has the ability to unlock their potential and also that the universe is a program.. a simulation. Reality has been demonstrated to not be real and illusions permeate our reality. Evolution has to many intersectionality's across everything besides biology.

I see the paradox I think.. that how.. if..how??

since before

So as I'm thinking about that silly post in Insta I'm thinking about the references and there's the science tie in regarding regeneration/reincarnation, like a phoenix 🐦‍🔥.. Indian sub continent and that area there about.

Rebirth 

So has humanity always had an idea that something was up? Those ideas always being in the fringe.. aka human biases once again taking the spotlight... Mm

the West enslaves

The Capitalist West enslaves the world, but creating and maintaining systems of violence to maintain its power over the world via direct and indirect violence. Utilizing a system of control that this thoroughly corrupted to the core. With corrupt officials infested in the city and state levels, infested officials in the federal and highest offices and institutions all beholden to maintaining the system of corruption that keeps humanity enslaved.

Change is a buzz word for the left and right.. change for the right is to change back.. change for the left is the illusion of forward.

The resources of the earth belong to all.. full stop. The well being of the planet is dependent on all.. full stop.

Those against these ideas and are fascist, capitalist, racist, and any other exploitative group are the biggest threat. Now this is the rub, you can't get rid of them. They are a fundamental aspect of reality, if enlightenment is possible how does one achieve it.. trial and error... Reality is not a one size fits all.. not all will experience what is needed for enlightenment... Some have more privileges than others in their random existence.

The fundamental aspects of reality are wavelengths, or frequencies or ripples across the pond, a breeze blowing and the direction it flows.. change is a constant.. understanding how reality works, how you are a part of it.. education and insight are the guide posts towards enlightenment.. education based critical thinking skills weighed against logic and history and anecdotal experiences and those of others.. is just a brief description I would say of what is possible for one. Education gives one the knowledge to hopefully make better choices... Hopefully one also learns from their mistakes. Some are more painful than others, some more necessary than others.

you live here

Show the coin pictures.. the edge is where you live.

Black piece of paper with Front written on it.

White piece of paper with Back written on it.

The edge of the paper... You live here.

A grid color wheel in progression of colors.. the line between is where you live.

Day and night... Sunrise and sunset is where you live.

Sun and moon... When the moon is not visible is where you live.

Eclipses.. the phases of the planetary system, the phases of the earth, you live in between each moment.. each minute.. each second.. each nano second... Time marches forward and us with it as we hurtle through spacetime, never in the same place twice throughout eternity. The universe ever expanding that we can see for now. At this moment.. we moving through space. We are strange little creatures with an arrogance as large as the Milky Way, though myopia and a host of other reasons prevent the species from turning away from systems of violence. Keeping anyone but the most cancerous speciemens from exerting their versions of truth and freedom which are nothing by lies and propaganda just to maintain a plutocratic capitalistic corpo-technocracy that is taking its cues from pop culture satire and bringing it to pass. The generations of lies, treachery, deceit, and treason against the American people. Those in power and those who are owned by them dictating what is to happen via the performative theatre we call government. Both sides owned by the same donors budding their wishes... All the while keep the American citizens dumb and distracted. A pussy poor excuse of a public education teaching cattle for the slaughter how to follow the line. The capitalist machine grinding them up from the cradle to the grave, each moment of ignorance orchestrated through the systems of governance instituted over the years, all the while the powerful and duely financially elected craft laws to subjugate the people, divide them based on financial reasons, violence in its most devilish form. Imagine a group of people OWN everything before you get there and say ALL of this is mine, but I'll give you a crumb for some labor.

That is reality, that is capitalism.. imagine being told that the world.. the universe.. the reality you are born into is not free, is not liberated... And there is just an illusion of happiness dangled in front of your face?

American freedom is a lie.. the reality of laws documented by those who own everything are lies..

We are governed by liars, murderers and thieves, who have hoodwinked, bamboozled, and hornswoggled us for generations. 

You are being made a fool and fodder for their entertainment. Capitalism is enslavement of the most dastardly, foul, and evil in its purist sense as it's system of violence, rooted and foundational, unadulterated in one of its most concentrated forms is nothing exploitation of others (resources) for ones own gain or to serve a small subset of humanity in such a way.

Polarization of beliefs will always be a problem though, that's reality, evolution in all its forms.

There's always a polarized view at what is present in the reality at the moment. That in-between, the grey area is the edge of a coin. It must exist, it is the gradient between colors in the light spectrum. The varying wavelengths that make white light but are in reality different wavelengths of colors.

When the correct conditions exist, physics displays itself appropriately. Spacetime is different everywhere as to how it's measured and observed. The picture science paints shows a wonderous cacophony of extremes and mesmerizing harmonies in it's various presentations from the translated data or the experiments conducted about this reality or the views of the JWST of deep space. So many wonderous aspects of life that you need to see, to experience, to have no stone unturned. 

https://www.space.com/33527-how-fast-is-earth-moving.html

not my job

It's not my job to educate you, it's your job to educate your self to understand and comprehend.

a kid

An adult is a kid who knows what they need to do...

no simple answer

Si I'm looking up essay wiki..

Thinking to myself how there is nothing as an easy answer to a complex question. Sometime even so called easy questions may give an impression to having an easy answer but I think upon closer inspection you'll see it's not.

For one to attempt to give an easy answer seems like one would need to have an intimate experience with the choice of words in order for them to chose specific ones in an attempt to make an easy answer easy.

Words having meaning and purpose and are not just the manual method of getting ones thoughts archived in a manner, to get their view across, to tell a story or fill out a form. Writing is a fundamental technology and learned skill, but understand this. Any aspect of humanity that allows us to interact with or ourselves could be viewed as a skill. From feeling to tying your shoes to flying a plane to digging a trench and designing counting 300 digits of pi. Some are privileged to have better skills than others due to a number of factors, but primarily that reality has to be because the past said so. Your path was made before you were born and the choices are written in the particles that govern space time. 

So, if the present is predicated on yesterday I have no control and tomorrow will unfold irrespective. To be able to see this, is both fulfilling and disconcerting. The reality is more reassuring than anything before.. I'm not overwhelmed by the changes that occur in my life. Granted I say this now... Seriously I'm trying to see what other fuckin curve balls life has planned. I do feel confidant that I have bitten off more than I can chew. I am freaking excited.. supercalifragilisticexpialidocious fucking excited.

Omg.... Totes ma goates!!!

I have this scrapped the bottom barrel moment feeling I think.. granted it could be phenomenally worse .. phenomenally!

I have a long road.. barring meteors and 3rd world wars I think I can do something.

I can find something... I feel more confident than I have in a long time... Nervous.. anxious a bit.. I'm taking a leap.. deep end.

Jan I have production deadline.. I need to draw up a calendar here.. 

(Side note)

I was distracted by an email.. spark weight loss clinical study...

I'm having a rough time.. haven't gained but haven't lost.. yes been busy.. I get that.. maybe that's the focus.. ok got it.. feeling weird. But that's not it...

I noticed that is seems like life in some ways absolutely feels like a waking dream..

In a car driving by again and again . Blurred visions of the same

Though something's repeated always have a weird familiarity to them.. a 2nd data point.. the stacks of images flipped through showing your days of life.. a 3rd, 4th, 5th, 52nd experience.. stacked images, memories showing a moment in time of motion and emotion.. feelings gone.. feeling gone..

thoughts..

You would rather be entertained than educated... Enslaved instead of emancipated.

Ignorant versus enlightened.

Your fear rules you.

cringelord the edgelord

So I've discovered that I love teen edge cringe...

It's the nostalgic aspect of the self discovery that makes one reflect on their own and despair. Lol

human systems

Why is human invented systems seems to have a exploitation component.

Specifically capitalism.

The legal system is an exploitative system.

Our infrastructure is exploitative.

Our government is exploitative.

Our military.

Humanity is exploitative...

dischordiant

If you deny your growth you are a dyschordiant sound in the fabric of space time, a needle across a record.

side notes

Giddy again...

Those calls with my pop mean the most.

2021.. year my mother died apparently.

That's a weird segway... That call had it all.

So freaking motivated... M O T I V A T E D

my humanity

My humanity supercedes laws the prevent my humanity.

Life liberty pursuit of happiness 

How are they codified into law??

insight?

Violence for the sake of malicious violence is the definition of cowardice.

Violence in defense of the historically exploited is heroism in action.

Violence can vary there's always a new benchmark mark to be made, but can be aggressive, passive, direct, indirect, there are a myriad of scenarios.

how are you not curious?

On the premise that reality is a social construct and that reality is an illusion.

How does one not want to question everything?

How these systems that bind us socially and are intricately bound to us, exist and persist?

What are the mechanisms that make it so?

What is it that drives us to repeat the same mistakes not to learn from history?

Remember when you were little and what motivated you? The drive to just go play or seemed amazed at something for the first time or question after question about everything? Why do you assume it's true or correct? Do you remember the moment you stopped playing with toys as a child, what was it that made you go I no longer want to do this?  Do you feel like an adult? What is that? Why do languages work but don't work? What knowledge out there is useful, or useless? How does one determine that? How do we know?

There is this fine line between confidence and arrogance, which is apparently the "zen moment" you want, being able to confidently convey a topic with adequate knowledge and the ability to support and go in to ancillary topics of a same vein whilst knowing what words to avoid that might indicate your lack of knowledge.

I don't know or I lack the knowledge to have an opinion are sufficient and expected.

I feel both ignorant and confident.. confident in that I think I have enough of the bug picture to attempt to relay and point in the right side for references as well. In fact a majority of what piques my writing is from what I was reading. A good other is from experiences ATM in relation to either current reading or some long term thought I have been stewing on...

some foundational thoughts

So these are my current foundational thoughts...

Humanity focused via science, philosophy, Marxist, with anarcho tendencies.

Community focused, but here's the science based kicker.

If the current premise is localized reality is an illusion then we are a simulation of sorts. This is Sims...

So by that logic we are part of a program, and the data that gets processed is only relevant to this moment in space-time, moment by moment till we reach however many frames a second to call reality the 24 hr day, etc al. Re time/measurable 

So we are where we are, a message for my future self?? 

It's up to me to leave a message for my future self...

I really think actual reality is weirder than the reality being sold... It been a long strange trip.. 

The human experience when you dissect it and the data (history) is pieces together in the coherent manner that shows just how things repeat themselves coupled with the intersectionality of changes across it all.. science, history, war, disease, environment, customs, evolution, what we know now vs then, the more we know and process and analyze and extrapolate the patterns... When you can cross reference events to show patterns of corruption and explotation and the cycles of it all, then go hey it's like nature and the world around us and looking beyond the here and now and self.. looking beyond the self... To see your humanity and others.. to find your potential.. to find yourself.. to find your humanity.. to create the purpose that is for you because you spent the time needed to discover it.. to cultivate it.. to understand the methods and ways that work for you.. but understanding that only you can do the work.. put in the effort.. it requires change.. not doing the same thing again and again.. breaking those habits that we always run to.. the easy road is denying change. You deny yourself, especially if you think you can ignore the change happening without you.

internalizing

Am I crazy (more of a introspective rhetorical to self vs letting my kid gaslight me)...

What does it mean to understand, to "truly comprehend", does my zeal translate as zealousness? 

Is it pseudo intellectualism?

Not gonna lie those stung, but in my autistic obsessiveness fixating on words... I'm looking at the whole... Who and where he his, his word choice... Therapy is the road one needs to travel if they want to ...

I'm always second.. third.. fourth.. guessing myself.. it's just that having gone through what I have and my unique history I can pull example after example of what I am talking about... Those who excel typically come from a traditional household type environment. From ancient days to the forefathers and today. Having a grand parent guide in the way the kids perceive the world will help there development. I absolutely don't feel qualified but at the same time I do. I do not think this will be easy or a cake walk. These are they most difficult times, where a good chunk of one's core memories are developed and guide one throughout life. Not having the critical tools to navigate life is one of the things that makes it so difficult. The expanded knowledge that makes people more aware of themselves and the world around them.

Growing up doesn't have to be as painful as it is due to lack of knowledge or awareness of the world around us. Life and the world is so much more vibrant when you have a compass and can wander with more direction of purpose.

I could do it

I know there's a bit of DK here...

I know there is some self serving ego * know there is a bevy if other thoughts and emotions that go into things.. skills.  Those deemed the best in the produced by humanity category or arts n crafts which some will call fine arts.. the difference in skill from a movie first time production to one who has mastered said craft over the years.. the painter or carpenter or sculpter or any other medium used in crafting.

Perfection is an illusion though there are some moments perfectly captured in time...

When you see the object as a snapshot of that moment... Even if it could be recreated there's specific elements name space & time that it's copied from but not the same..

Some either is or isn't.. can't be both

Currently trying to come up with something with exploit, enslave, & 

I'm an extremist who believes that...

Humans have a right to live unless they want to exploit, eradicate, or enslave me.

Humans are not the only species on this planet and shitting where we eat, and depleting our resources are some of the worst things we do.. some.

That all the resources in this planet belong to all and not a few.

That humanity lacks the balls to do what is needed, mainly the need to cut its own balls off. I find it humourous how American media can portray/depict an all American type protagonist willing to "go the distance" for what is needed but unable to have the introspection enough to see how they could apply it their life unless it's through the twisted and distorted lens that permeates the dysfunctionality of society.

 But is that a feature and not a bug?

I say yes because of chaos.. chaos is the feature of evolution or reality.

beer

Reading a NYT article about the craft bear decline.

Thinking about this brewery's 30 plus year run, and thought this is the moment this was to happen.

The owner to have his moment, the place and time for me to write about it, here and now.

Now is the time... 

To be free but not, to be enslaved of a sort of sorts by my choice and against it. Whether physically or mentally.

I must grin and bear it.  Sack up, bite the bullet, go into the breach... Endure the crucible so to speak.

The insanity of the off beaten path must be a sight for others.

It's the incredulity that is confounding, the against the grain gets people to scream no not like that, how could you, what were you thinking!??!!

The here and now, this time and place. What's your reason for existence and the road of self. A lonely and perilous journey of discovery and horror through triumphs and tribulations. Entropy wins in the end.

I wander off for a minute... Always stewing in thought, helpful or not. Distracting myself with some feline attention.

If I condem the world I also condem myself.

space

Why do you hold so much space in your brain for other people's thoughts & opinions?

traps of reality

Certainty 

Knowledge

Best laid plans

I'm sure the list is much longer, but my brain at the moment isn't having it.

i feel this draw this incessant draw to learn and read and study. Yet it screams a trap to me, that no matter what I think is something relevant and I'm beginning to get my head wrapped around it, about it, understanding the topic there is another thread attached, another branch to traverse, the ink has not run dry.

The intersectionality of it and so on and so forth.

To attempt to discuss one topic is difficult, as nothing is an island unto itself. It is part and parcel of the fabric of reality. How much does one need to know before being knowledgeable? 

pessimistic optimist

https://www.theguardian.com/environment/2024/dec/28/we-need-dramatic-social-and-technological-changes-is-societal-collapse-inevitable

This article got me thinking about those terms.

Pessimism & optimism 

Pessimist denoting a negative or somber outlook

Optimist denoting a positive or favorable outlook.

The problem I have with them is the general perception in their usage. I'm sure there are behavioral studies in and around the words and connotations of positive/negative, though the question in my head is this. How much does one or the other actually differ in the realistic picture.

That is, are optimist's more wrong about the world view then pessimists? Is there a better way to view or word this?

Rabbit trail led me to a book to read...

https://psycnet.apa.org/fulltext/2000-16270-000-FRM.pdf

OPTIMISM&

PESSIMISM

Implications for Theory,

Research, and Practice

imagine

Imagine convincing millions you're an South African superstar but reality is you're just a brown dwarf.

why tear it down

The system is built by those with money and power and it serves them, everyone else is incidental. The "illusion" of a 2 tiered system is anything but, it is reality.

Justice is performative theatre, as is politics, and government. The illusion of having laws the apply to some not all. The purpose of getting rid of George was to have a fundamental hand in the development of an experimental form of democracy where ALL were held accountable.

But apparently that is not the case here, and I would contend never truly has. Democracy is an illusion is the rich and powerful have to pay but a fine. Pennies to their dollars, while the rest of the rabble have their lives turned upside down and inside out. Destitute and broken, just as the system is intended to. If it can incarcerate you, it turns a dime. Look at he the Prison Industrial complex, look at the 13th A.

We have been a broken system and will continue to be a broken system until every last one of the machinations of oppression is dismantled and destroyed and the exploitation of capitalism is smashed. American/Western democracy enslaves us all... Capitalism enslaves us all, by creating the systems of supply and demand to be distorted beyond sustainable levels all in the name of SHV. Share Holder Value

How much money can we make out stick holders? How do you exploit people and the planets resources to continuously generate ROI/Equity/money to those enslaving us?

some people

Some people only have 2 crayons...

Some people only have an 8 pack of crayons...

Some people only have a 16 pack of crayons...

Some people only have a 24 pack of crayons....

Some people only have a 64 pack of crayons...

Some people have none...

Some people have a lot of crayons but don't use them... Some who have few use them feverishly...

Some people...

violence is a default setting

The rules of reality

What we have learned from science, what has been demonstrated again and again over the years. The history humanity is doomed to repeat.

Violence is a default setting, that causes change sometimes.

And that change usually is limited in scope if it occurs.

Then there is the illusion of change, of advancement, of progression.

Either with ourself or the world around us.

Is the expansion if the universe an illusion. Is the movement through time and space an illusion?

The constant state of questioning.. the endless do loop... Never ending rinse and repeat cycles... Of one illusion after another.

Allegory

Not everyone see's it the same way.

Not everyone interprets the story as intended.

Ones vision is theirs alone.

This is one facet view.. my experience and lacking education about the world we live in.. it seems redundant but again here we are presented with I e of the most aggravating aspects about learning some may say. Repetition.

Drilled into our kinds so it because second nature.. known by heart.

The pledge if you are a victim of a US public education system. A tool of indoctrination that others more knowledgeable than myself have discussed.

The local customs in a capitalistic, typically western societies and colonies that embrace the purchasing habits and inherent oppressive systems intent on a cyclical indoctrination and brainwashing/propaganda insitutions that drive capitalism.

And yet here I am.. once again wondering.. in light of all this at second guessing myself but then looking at the evidence and going.. yep Humanity is fucking itself. Yep we being lied to, hoodwinked, bamboozled, and hornswoggled.

 You getting got.

You line wilfs fucking yourself over, lone wolves don't survive.. age of information and toy want to stay ignorant as fuck.

worst/greatest

So the more I look at the Taosit philosophy of be like water..

Crap seriously all you need to do is really think on those words... What does that mean.. you adapt to the environment you are in.. 

The pursuit of balance or finding the moments that allow you to take advantage of your skills and talents to grow to experience your humanity in a scale you haven't dreamt of for those who may have always felt like a loser.

Those with a curious mind.. always filled with wonder and questioning the reality they exist in.

Only those who know the language can understand, regardless if you can read the words in whatever language, some will never understand. Those who are the epitome of cowards and fear mongers. This who use violence by any means to be in control.

They are only devoted to the self.

Side note.. so I've been in this bit of perplexity of sorts... I'm attempting to come up with quotes or a sort, quips that are self explanatory but are also quite obvious, cerebral and philosophical and leftist in nature.

Yet anytime I come up with something a bit inspirational I'm quickly to explore the exploitability of it, can the reverse be true or have it co opted in a manner.  Granted parody, mocking and the sort is always a given, one size does not fit all.

Analogy of dice in levels of emotions and understanding.

D4 you have limited emotions and understanding 

D6 two additional traits come into play

D8 so on n so forth

D10

D12

Spectrum of colors.. range of hues.. when does purple become red.. or red become purple.. variation of the species...

Unlocking ones potential that has been systematically squashed down.. for generations..

There is no simple answer, just those that don't want to be bothered to think.

The illusions we self impose hinder us more than you can know... These systems of absolutes, what is and isn't.. 

The process is long.. requires months and years of observations that are always on going.. why? Because time stops for no one. It not a race, it's life.. one day at a time... Habits take time to form and you need to start with one at a time. Don't try to do all in one shot, you can try but it will be frustrating and more likely than not make you quit.

You need to observe first.

Document behavior or feeling or activity

Examine the evidence for what's been documented, educate yourself on the topic. It will take time, there's a specific level of knowledge and understanding required for one to fully comprehend. (What does it mean to fully comprehend?)

Then reevaluate the documented event. See if there is any insight garnered, then back to chase down any additional education, with another follow up... Rinse repeat, as you get experience through social situations and deal with the myriad of other people going through life you will have the wisdom part hopefully. 

story idea

Jesus of the times

How the concept of Jesus has morphed over the centuries....

How the church has changed over time and adapted with society...

Other tid bits around this theme...

balance

Love myself enough that I hate myself

Hate myself enough that I love myself

the US

Living in the US is like being told you are going to win with the unplugged controller.

Only those with money have the plugged in controller. 🎮

laugh at an asshole

Idea to ridicule shit wheels, Tx gov.

thousands

Thousands of years of recorded history and you think you're sufficiently educated.

You are guided by fear uncertainty and doubt

You barely know how to wipe your ass and yet think you can make a choice for others

You have no comprehension of your native language in you reside in the US.

This is intentional

You have been lied to, your parents have been lied to, their parents have been lied to, it goes back generations. 

But you refuse to see the evidence. You refuse to look inward, you refuse your humanity, you sell yourself short and deny others the same opportunity for their discovery of self.

You could be super powered instead your just a shell of a seed of possibility because you've been polluted since birth to be something other.

The requirements of being exploited by others who tell you who you are, what to think, what to believe, what to say, how to act, where to go and what you can do. The problem is we need a good part of some of these activities, the activities of self discovery, and social community with one another, governance of self but a unity for all. Capitalism requires borders, it requires the division for social/economic needs. Workforce asking for too much, out source labor / off shore it. 

things they don't teach you school

Job redundancy 

Re org

Department has been consolidated

The merger only allows for so much head count

New technology enables your job to be automated

lost its right

The West has lost its right to have a say in the rights of others. The West has lost the right to refute it's documented list of lies. The West has lost the right to have a say at the table with those it's has oppressed, the decades upon centuries of documented violence, colony upon destructive colony, raping and plundering the resources of the planet just in the perpetuated paranoid misperception of others.

The West is cancer to humanity.

this is the way - tradition

The only reason why we celebrate shit today is because some ignorant violent dumbfuck convinced another group of ignorant violent dumbfucks that his idea was the best. Superstition was the precursor for all this, then religion was the organized distilled form of superstitious ignorance. This is the precursor for the drive of the purest form of human avarice, evil incarnate. The drive to exploit.

Though if the reality is evolution and it's drivers. Not too mention the science of reality and the universe, is this one protocol of infinite? Is humanity supposed to awake mentally or stay ignorant forever in a tug of war between fear and acceptance.

reading

Observation 

Reading quality dictates output creativity direction.

Reading the comments section from Lammy and Reddit.

Bots intermingled with people.

This is what keeps me away from these platforms.. pissing in the wind. A suicide soda that appeals to a specific subset...

Go look for the knowledge where it can be found, not to say a nugget couldn't be found there, it's just a laborious event.

But this one.. from a clinical perspective, is one I need to incorporate..

Slip and fell.

Patient stated they slipped and fell in the shower on the shampoo bottle lodged in rectum.

Found an article about lodged items in orifices... 

Humourous entertaining and somewhat of a different perspective to explore... What commonalities do others experience in their job?

The day to day mundane or not that is routinely encountered.

life of shit

You feel your life is shit

You feel you are owed 

You've been lied to your whole life

Intentionally and not

Your anger at others who struggle

Is misguided and misplaced

You've been led astray

Run amok

Waylaid and shanghaied 

Abducted and absconded

Hoodwinked

Bamboozled 

And hornswoggled

You've been entrapped and enslaved

Sold off as a resource

And treated as garbage

Just so the truly insane

The truly deranged

The most dangerous can play 

Play as they see fit with

Your life

Your resources

Your family

Your dreams

Your future

In exchange you get lies and deceit

Subterfuge of your humanity

So they can experience theirs at your expense

The capitalists 

The lovers of violence

The lovers of greed

The lovers of lies

The truly deplorable and despicable 

The cancer of humanity

the process

I barely understand electronics and it's piss poor for what I do know.

I understand basic animal and plant biology at maybe a high school/early college level.

I understand the basics of science and psychology and philosophy at a fundamental level at best. Though I know in my core I am a moron, and I know there is a specific type of programming or coding at the chemical level that is the primary driver, DNA / RNA. The chemical events that trigger us mentally by visually interpreting a situation based on the chemical reactions in our brain, in our gut, and I'm gonna really emphasize who knows what else. Case in point the newly discovered obelisks being a pet of the human biology. What other animals have this? Where/when did they occur evolutionary? What do they do?

And then there are the laws of physics that govern those chemical processes to an extent, gravity, electromagnetism, nuclear forces... This is the shit that goes off in my brain these days. 

To be enlightened is to be humble

To be enlightened to know as much as possible across the entire spectrum of human knowledge and fundamentally know, comprehend and understand with your full being that you are a moron at best. To know is to err.

While heartedly understand that given the above, the principals of science and the attributed quotes from Socrates are mixed in to form the bedrock of one's reality for the truly curious mind.

An unexamined life is not worth living..

I know that I know nothing..

The heart is what drives us, a heart of wonderment and curiosity.

The disciplined mind guides us in overcoming obstacles and the pit traps of life. Failure is the greatest teacher, but beware lessons of life can haunt and guide you. Guilt and regret can become a millstone if not confronted in a manner that doesn't bring harm. Change is required and painful, your reality will be fundamentally broken and those are the trying times. The times we are tested to our capacity, the quiet moments where you feel something break. Those quiet moments you understand your humanity and fragility, your complete and utter powerlessness, how truly ignorant you are about things... Or not, you could withdraw or lash out or not be introspective one bit. There is a small subset who may find comfort and guidance and information that helps them in their life journey. Knowledge is in experience, but the type and quality and quantity does matter... One size does not fit all...

You are given an illusion of choice..

You are being manipulated and controlled.. exploited for others advantage...

Can humanity solve it's biggest problem?? Which is itself, it's inability to control the worst aspects. The unfettered greed and avarice, the exploitation of others so a few can live in luxury. A few who tell you what and how one should be educated, being able to work, to provide for ones self and ones family. Purposely misleading you in the reality that is possible, but I must take a step back and address one obvious point that is what I call the lynch pin of Capitalism...

Ignorance 

If you keep people ignorant, they will love to be exploited.

The quintessential unplugged controller situation... That is society, once again incapable of getting past that hurdle.. remove that lynch pin (educate the masses of the reality of their exploitation) and maybe something could happen.

weird dreams

Doin the walking around a city bit.. though it's vaguely So Cal of a sorts but with distorted topography and infrastructure. 

People movers, and seaside towns that aren't quite how I remember them.

Interactions with someone attempting to swindle me if a sorts with their feminine ways, straight up said they were ugly at best. Fire and brimstone.

Weird indoor/outdoor morphing shops when you reached an elevation destination on the walk.

Big ass snake.. rattler.

Need to chill... 

Have had this dream sequence previously of the region... Instances were a bit different.

conditioning

Waiting... Waiting for hopefully some pizza. Though also thinking about the state of our humanity or specifically mine.  What does it mean to exist, and how we are conditioned from birth to accept this reality presented to us.

I'm at this point in life where I'm able to dissect the moment, the illusion so to speak. Taking apart all that I see in a scientific lens of physics, biology, psychology, etc al. Human behavior, animal behavior, these motivations we are constantly reacting to. The ever present physiological drives in this space time.

The objects we see day to day and have assigned names and meaning to. Though understanding it's all a social construct, there's this feeling of being on the edge of consciousness, this unseen boundary of darkness, a total lack of information to connect to the moment in question. But my thoughts are a cascade conglomeration of prior data input. So making attempts for data integrity checks has me questioning still. 

So tired... Physically tiring day.

actually

She was the highlight but overall it was a fantabulous day with them all...

also super giddy

Super bondo day w eldest GK.... Totes malotes..

She's ripe for the guidance.. eager, nerdy, and broody... Squeeeee

She too can be an ubermensch!

I know the incantation!

another one

Like that snow alley photo.. eerie comforting feeling of the crisp night sea air.. what does that dock smell like? Creosote and salt? Is there a lingering exhaust smell?? What what what??