someone who I can share my life with.. who i can be open and honest.. one who doesn't let me get complacent with life.. driven.. but not too driven.. we help each other.. communication is a fundamental.. where nothing is taken for granted.. all questions.. all discussions.. what is this reality to you?
Do you have goals still?
How do you view your humanity?
Do you read?
Science...
She said the right words...
we all have a secret combination of words i think when it comes to forming relationships... these sets of words could be flowery loves letters in a poetic manner or some other modern day representation of what piques the interest when you have your guard up.
She said the right words... She used words that piqued my interest, in who this person is. The quality and manner who they are...
But here I am.. one thirsty mofo apparently.
I was not under any impression that last night was going to be something other than a night of dancing and having fun. YET HOLY SHIT.. I they most fun out dancing in a loooooong time. Meeting Kim (?) last night was not expected... first glance she was not my type at all.. Blonde.. but I went in this greeting through small inconsequential banter of getting to know you. Unknowingly entering into a sitcom-esque conversation of blunt truth volleying for 5 minutes. I was a smitten kitten...
but here I am reflecting now in a bit more sober mind than last night.. I have been pretty good at regulating the fun chems... "pretty good" that there is scientifical.
What is it about this journey of self, where you wrestle with the "bad habits" that we feel impair our ability to become better. I started doing drugs early, why.. because my parents were fucking morons. Who the hell let's their kid run around after dark? Knowing that the older kids influences were everywhere.
anywho.. Why do I let innocent encounters get ahead of me? Didn't really flirt with each other aside from"holy shit another good song, i need a break!" but that could also be her going yeah not interested.. dancing is a good excuse.. but also should could be like me.. can't talk.. dancing!
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