anger in wisdom

 I'm stumbling to remember what this stoned epiphany is atm. and being angry at wisdom but knowing it's benefits more so now than ever.

I'm having imaginary conversations in my head with P. How I don't think I'll have enough words for it to make sense to her because she lacks the needed experiences to understand them coupled with further education. A) I feel like a smug bastard for thinking that.. one and this should be enough is that I know I'm no better. I have my own reality that I struggle with even knowing what I presume to know is a bit lowly. As here is something that could fundamentally change how a person sees the world, how they see themselves, there entire being. The problem is Humanity is it's own worst enemy.

Cognitive Dissonance doesn't help... neither does being born into a typical dysfunctional family like so many others. The superficial shit that humanity clings to. The illusions that plague us and trap us and warp our minds to a self oppressive reality. Yet I wonder, still.. are we not in a type of hell. One in which is probably the most evil of all. One the appears to be programmed none the less. A species that evolves into a consciousness capable of critical thought. One that is born fully ignorant of the world and must rely on the "local knowledge" to "make it" at some future point in their life. Subsisting off of traditional foods such as chemicals known to cause cancer in laboratory animals and animal products of every fashion that'll have you asking for more. What's more 'Murican than a quadruple bypass!

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