I have to admit something, I sorta lied about the title of this blog... not the post.. but the blog itself. Overcame life... HA HA HA HA HAH
oh boy that was funny.
Here I am being my own worst enemy... Knowing full well I AM FUCKING IGNORANT OF THE SITUATION and any speculation is just that.. absolute nonsense.. yet i want to read in to things.
SHE FOLLOWED ME.... how.. how in the fuck of fucks did that happen.. how did she find me IN LESS THAN A DAY.. fuck in less than 4 hours.. shit 2. maybe 30 minutes.. I wasn't testing the scenario!!
The LOVE OF MY LIFE...
the one that has me writing about her NOW. TODAY at 50 fucking years of age.. the one I can't stop thinking about no matter how much I try... and coming to this revelation that I can't be in a relationship with anyone but her.. not in the stalky gonna wear your skin way.
the depressing revelation of how wired I am for her.. how I know nothing about who she is aside from this.. Melissa is driven.. holy shit.. I'm envious.. proud of her... holy shit soo fucking proud especially knowing where she's come from. I'm in love with a M from 30 yrs ago.. 35+ years... she had my heart from the age of 13.. i'm 50.. and it's really fucking hard to enjoy life when the one you hoped and wished for is out of reach.. and I know some may say c'est la vie.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WnaM5Fwn5Js
I have conflicts though.. not gonna lie.. Kim nailed all the right words.. but again.. 5 fucking minutes.. chillax turbo.
and again.. my mind is ahead of itself.. because reality is single is the only option at the moment.
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