So today woke up early... stress is getting to me... hi stress herpes...
I'm not able to focus on today.. this is a problem.. my head is everywhere else but here and when I try it's only for a bit.. so now it's back to the exercise routine pre back injury... which actually seems to have improved tremendously so there is that..
I need to make this quick.. middle of a routine but an idea popped in my head.. hence title...
I know I'm on the verge of tears again.. even in this situation of increased heart rate, sweating, etc... due to exercise.
I tried to meditate earlier but that was not working...
I don't want to fake things... I want to be me.. and I'm finding that while I think I know me.. maybe I don't.. i mean I do.. I'm just wondering what i can change.. and to what degree.. and can it be for the better..
I continue to read psych articles and papers when I can... I'm wondering if I need to institute a better schedule.. is that who I am.. (I've frequently said in the past I work better under a schedule or a planned day scenario)... Freeform is something I can do in a scheduled manner... as I can't have a chaotic schedule..hmmm.. is Instacart for me?
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