frank oz

I was watching a clip from Conan 1997 with M Hamill and he's doing impressions telling a story when Frank's name is mentioned.

Frank Oz is my childhood with the muppets and I just realized that when he passes I may have a little emotional episode.

Certain childhood pop culture things are foundational.

The Muppet Show, Star Wars, Puff the Magic Dragon are a few tv shows.

Puff the song, Cats in the Cradle, Father and Son are a few songs.

I'm at this weird part in my understanding or I should say how I choose to view.. interpret the knowledge I have and gained.

I see the world as this absurdity, I'm questioning existence itself. Not in a why am I here though I'm sure there is part of that, but in that it does seem like an illusion but again confirmation biases and shit. Which that doesn't help to disuade me ( somewhat).

I've come to this understanding of different perspectives, walked a mile in others shoes so to speak, which I can empathize yet i feel like it's also a bit unnerving as it does solve anything but just gives more questions. Do our efforts make things better or is it just cognitive dissonance?

Still on the illusion thought train...

Feeling old sucks, i can understand why people are bitter in there old age... I hate the age brings about this perceived clarity. Though I think the clarity has to do with searching for answers...

To know the world and your reality you have to learn about yourself. You need to discipline your thoughts, and actions. Though that's the rub, you are your own worst enemy and won't want to do it. As there has to be a series of events (imo) that have to be the catalyst to make those decisions consciously. Change in behavior required to recognize the behavior and that it needs to be changed and having a plan. Education and experience, it will be a trial and error, fits and tantrums before what you have learned becomes understood. Like most things in life, it is a skill to be learned and some of us are better are certain skills than others. Unfortunately the way we as a nation go about teaching is generally crap, it's outdated and ineffective. But then again we as a collective society love outdated ideas.