I'm feeling despondent.. melancholy.. depressed I dare say.
I don't want to write this but today has been a fucking weird ass day. As in I'm forcing myself to write...
Yesterday I had fanciful dreams of accomplishing tasks... woke up ok, then I had a headache pop up that just wasn't going away.. I felt off.. physically all day. So I putzed around like usual, vidiot games like usual. Some musing thoughts on what gets me sad.. songs primarily... sent a handful to the kids... got a bit sad thinking of T... and while I readily have songs about father/son relationships... I don't have any for father/daughter... and that got me looking... and then I realized.. I have 2
And YEP... can't listen to The Lion Sleeps Tonight... waaaaaaay to emotional atm.
cyclical... Am I being.. and I can't think of words these days... impulsive.. rash... risk taking...
I'm feeling hopeless atm.. mostly because it seems like I can't catch that break and here I am again looking for work, putting everything on hold... I have my dr appts this week.. i hope my endocrinologist can paint a better picture than what I currently have as to what is going on..
I'm not optimistic.. I've had a low grade headache since end of April..
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