on what level do you relate...

 So I'm always struggling with knowing that how we as humans communicate is shit... seriously.. because the more I think about things... the totality of existence.. me, myself, & the universe...

I'm stuck inside here.... and even though I guess you could say i have a bit of an education.. I'm a fucking moron.. as a species.. holy shit.. homo sapiens are some seriously dumb motherfucking primates...

but so are most animals if you use a human context to measure them by.. and not.

Because it's obvious that we as a species now DOMINATE this planet and as such have practical dominion over it all. Which is also the arrogance of humanity, we are driven by fear... anxiety... fomo.. keeping up with the jones's... and it's exacerbated by our physiology, our ignorance of ourselves, our ignorance of the people around us, our ignorance of our privileged statues, ignorance exacerbated by the driving forces of consumerism, capitalism, constant fear mongering, dictatorships run amok in the world - supported/created/founded on capitalist interests.

What does the word blue conjure to your mind... 

for me it represents many possible things, all with a interesting story based in reality, based on science. 

Science is the only mechanism in which we can measure reality in an unbiased way, this is due to the built in logical mechanisms/steps/procedures required - one of which is called peer review. It must pass peer review to be considered as following a logical scientific process. Peer review is essentially having your homework checked by someone who knows and understands the topics in the hypothesis - the main idea you are testing via the scientific method.

for me i after 48 years feel that I can understand things a bit better now.. i don't want to.. but I realize that I have to.. I want to crawl back into that bottle of pleasant experiences... and wallow in a vintage nostalgic circle jerk.. it done.. yes.. but it's also still very much a part of me.

But I'm also done.. I think I have this subconscious fantasy of a bookshop/lounge with a bohemian gothy vibe. I know my subconscious is very distorted due to my childhood bullshit.. I have moments of defaulting judgements.. that is not being 100% on critical thinking in ALL matters... I typically filter in dealing with rhetoric from others.. attempting to be conscious of my actions.. surroundings.. 

 

The brain is having to process a bajillion things all at once... the air pressure around you... the temperature.. the amount of light... the breathable air... what is in your field of vision...

 

regulate body temp.. the new synaptic information coming constantly with your brain processing it faster than anything we have currently in a microprocessor. Quantum is around the corner...

 

breathing, heart rate, all the different systems, in a exponentially growing process, delegated to evolution... time... chaos.. 

 

so for me the color blue... it's captured in more than just a color, it describes things found here on Earth, both natural - Blue Danube, blue waters, blue stones, blue flowers, blue animals.. blue eyes.

 

And self made - blue art, blue music, blue poetry, blue paintings, blue emotions... 

The feeling of blue can be both cool and refreshing or cold and heavy. Knowing how to describe your emotions to your surroundings.. your experiences.. to the shared experiences with other we hope to connect with...