Fishcake

 

My Nindo

 

I’m trying to figure out things and I think it just really fucking dawned on me atm the moment…

 

Plato’s cave

Trying to relate to others

Having other relate to me

 

So, there’s this part in the allegory (PC) where the one who is now free returns only to be ridiculed.

Is it our imagination that lets us dream for more than this?

 

And being in a low point at the moment I’m rewatching what fixes that mood. Re watching Naruto…

As dorky as it sounds, it realigns my mental state.

Baka

I’m in this weird state at the moment… I have this sour feeling in my body.. and not sour in the pleasant sense… it’s mixed in with grief and sorrow and bitterness and pain.. my body is still prone to physically feeling stress in my shoulders  and neck.. but I can be hopeful. So that’s the sourness I guess..

I get these waves of self-reassurance of knowing (I hope) that I’m doing what I know (key phrase) based on what I’m starting to learn. I’ve just begun to understand myself