Anime lead....

Something Enma anime... 3rd episode this was featured,,,, the song not the video.



Very hauntingly beautiful... the sad happy... the burns in your mind for a thousand lifetimes type of feeling.



Again I find myself on the verge of tears... but it's a sadness, a real sadness at this realization. This bitter sadness about life and all that it is.



I'm thinking I need to pay attention to the words that I say aloud. I've been very verbal about the level of stress I'm currently under and I think I need to pay attention and perhaps try to make some sort of correlation/connection with feelings and actions.



I'm not content... I'm just having to accept that there is very little I can do without a steady, reliable, and adequate stream on income. I'm in that boat, I know my skills. I know who I am....



Sadly I am dictated by my primal emotions, food. I am wondering now how much I rewired my brain, with an early and persistent use of cannabis in my early teens. Resuming periodically in the 20's and then full time in my 30's. Corner of Oxford & Hanover.... first time I smoked weed and started down a path of experimenting with life.