Resentment

I'm currently going through some serious resentment feelings at the moment.... feelings that I really are bullshit at the moment.

I guess... I'm really holding on to this at the moment and part of me just wants to bail and start a new.

This is the adult tantrum...

And no I haven't had anything as of yet today... I'm getting to the point of screaming at people...

I don't like my situation... and while I think I'm working on stuff or towards stuff... I'm having this moment of growing impatience...

Maybe I'm reading too much into shit... that's not it... it's a this compounding of issues that I'm unable to deal with... I'm pissed... at me..

For instance I want to hurl this laptop into oblivion...

the fucking touchpad is off center, so the edge of my palm/thumb cause the cursor to move from time to time...

GGRRGRRGRGRGRGRGRGGRGR

fucking pissed... but for no good reason.. and I have a gnarly headache again... today.. so tired of this BS...

Tired of everyone... especially the people in this house...  but that's just the resentment talking...

Sure if I didn't stick my dick in everything that moved way back when I may not be in this situation... then again if I had parents... see how this game works...

Resentment is a never ending street to nowhere...

This is one of those I want to quit moments... to add to the long fucking list of wanting to quit moments...

And honestly I don't know why this is fucking me up so much at the moment...

I see the melancholy on the horizon..

soo fucking god damned tired all the time... and what the fuck is this feeling of being held back or holding back??