So I am stuck in the 70's/80's... old school KROQ and 91X.
(HA! Looks like Irvine Meadows became Irvine Meadows again... like it should have been.)
I have to say for there to be a time I was apart of I'm glad it was this one.
I have to admit though this music does bring back a lot of weird emotions... then again... what is it with this time in my life.
It's so freaking bizarre... all of these "first" memories come flooding... people I hadn't thought of in forever and probably will never see them again. I find it weird how it makes me sad... is this mid life regret?
Maybe.. I know a good portion of my impetus for what I do know is partly from time is running short and I have a ton of things I'd like to do before I depart this blue rock.
Why does DM have such an impact on me the way its does.... ha.. I think I know why...
Pretty much listened to them all through Jr High into High School, while not a sought out favorite they were heard frequently enough to be a "soundtrack" to the moment. Especially knowing how DQ I was..
I'm really not liking getting older right at the moment... woah.... that was a sudden rush of despair... holy sheet.
UGH!!!
Why do I feel like I'll never be able to do shit... ugh... discipline... is a bitch of a mistress. I know that I need to take a breathe and chill and focus and realize the situation for what it is.. and what has happened in the past month or so weeks..
I have things I need to do and that to ensure things go as smooth as possible... I have to be able to provide as needed and be able to transition to a need endeavor post move. Additionally I'm supposed to be using this time to rebuild a foundation in certain fundamental skills and abilities that I honestly don't have as much skill as I think others think I have, though I'm not opposed to gaining said skill. I have to look at the journey before me and understand that there will be swamps along the way. It's a life journey in the sense that as long as I keep moving forward (some times I won't be moving because LIFE HAPPENS).
I love that Fall is right around the corner... look forward to the Winter, just hope the roof stays on.
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