Needless to say we all forgot that due to the circumstances.
Yesterday was not a good day.. well it was.. but it wasn't.
It was the worst feeling day since.. today is better.
One thing I have noticed... weed is not having an effect on my emotional state. Though I have to say it has helped to be able to cope. It's preventing me from dwelling on things that I shouldn't be at the moment. Conversely it's not really distracting me from it. Alcohol is probably making things worse, but it's not like I've been drinking myself silly. Then again I'm not a big drinker, never have been. 3 beers yesterday maybe 4 or 5 the day before...
I know I need to grieve... I have been..
I also know that I can't stay in a grieving period for forever.
Going to the tidepools... need to get out.. but not really wanting to deal with people..
Glad my family is here.
And that's a big thing for me to say....
and it's a good thing.
Stress... lack of concentration is there but not nearly as bad as it was...
physical effects are still there.. less pronounced, hoping to go back to work on Monday...
I know sending him that email yesterday helped...
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