Speaking from experience

How to begin to write something when you don't want to.


I had a screwed up childhood. Then again I don't know too many people who didn't have some fucked up aspect of growing up.

Some have it worse than others and some of us have parents who had it worse than us. There is no perfect family and the older one gets the more one sees reality for what it is vs. this fallacy of a false reality that is so prevalent. The societal construct that is pop culture and how effective it is in shaping a person's veiw towards things.

Sadly it's mostly too late for most of all of us. When I say this its just based on the standard norm of most people having kids before they are forty. While I don't have any evidence aside from my own experiences and those who I have talked to with more years than myself. I fully believe that most of us don't know shit from shineola. Even when we get to an age where things start to get real, which is subjective in and of itself.

My point is even when your young and an adult you don't know shit. It isn't till you've had the years of experience through various trials and tribulations can you begin to understand the foolishness of youth.

I'm not talking about kids and teens. I'm talking about the emotionally fueled cluessness that is inherent in the young adults.

Which brings me to the point of this.

Children are not some end result or check box to be marked off in your delusional game of life.

They are a lifetime commitment, one that doesn't end when they finally move out. Regardless of the bullshit they may put you through.

Which is why I say... Don't have children if your not ready for a world of pain... That is only surpassed by the joy you get from them.

The first ten years (usually I say 7) is the most magical.... It's a fucking F5 tornado when they hit their teens from that point forward.