When life has got you down in the dumps... listen to your music collection on shuffle. Some eong somewhere will pop up and help you out of your doldrums.
Now the pot helps you from going over the deep end and this is something people need to know. For me the the ability to self medicate and that's what it is, allows me to stay rational. Otherwise I could be just where my son is right now. Where I have been... regardless of what he thinks at this moment. I know exactly where he is at and how unstable and irrational he is as well.
So this is permanence, love's shattered pride
What once was innocence, turned on its side
A cloud hangs over me, marks every move
Deep in the memory of what once was love
Oh, how I realised how I wanted time
Put into perspective, tried so hard to find
Just for one moment, thought I'd found my way
Destiny unfolded, I watched it slip away
Excessive flash points beyond all reach
Solitary demands for all I'd like to keep
Let's take a ride out, see what we can find
A valueless collection of hopes and past desires
I never realised the lengths I'd have to go
All the darkest corners of a sense I didn't know
Just for one moment, I heard somebody call
Looked beyond the day in hand, there's nothing there at all
Now that I've realised how it's all gone wrong
Gotta find some therapy, this treatment takes too long
Deep in the heart of where sympathy held sway
Gotta find my destiny before it gets too late
- Joy Division - 24 Hours
I love how music has this power... that reaches down in an pulls out that feeling. Granted it's all a chemical reaction in the synapses but fuck it's awesome none the less.
I know what drugs and alcohol do.. well let me rephrase that... hard drugs and alcohol.
Studies are still coming in but pot is definitely looking to be THE miracle drug with its efficacy and lack of side effects.
Hell Special K may help.
Fuck... the youth is wasted on the young. I'm exhausted... emotionally. but I have to keep going till things normalize.
At least with newborns you have some clue when they stop crapping their pants. Not this case.
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