here we are again

So was thinking of an imaginary conversation I would have with my Dad regarding what medication, if any, works best for me... Once again weed.. it really fucking chilla the anxiety and in fact I feel the stress leave my shoulders as I write this. Actually untucking aware of just how bad it has been, but I think the canker forming should have been a clue... Twice in one year... That's a new record.. and within 3 months since the first.. other things in the squirrel brain.. or monkey brain.. stress.. anxiety driven.. plus et al..

Once again.. weed saves the day..

Now I'm trying to discuss in my head what is better... What sciences says.. or what you say about how best to deal with stress?

As what are the benefits vs side effects. Efficacy.. psychosomatic response.. placebo effect.. 

What is ones philosophy on life? How do you see the world?

I have issue with the reality that it currently takes a specific chemical combination to get me to behave how I would like or how I wish myself to be.. and it actually just dawned on me the facts about it or how my skewed view interprets the whole thing... If evolution is true in the aspect of species that adapt have better prospects in continuing down the evolutionary road.. I believe the phrase I was raised, survival of the fittest is incorrect in its language based on what is known now. It's not always the strongest or the prettiest -to which how would this even begin to be defined and even further there are so many rabbit trails in how reality is constructed with that phrase.. history of language, to first languages and how those ideas were captured, and what medium or form. How different cultures and languages have similar beginnings and others so unique they still remain a mystery... 

So to go back to the old man thing... And what if any medication saves me its weed..  this trip is gonna be fun...