love is blind

 having a bit of a music discussion with Bart and meandered off onto the topic of politics and shit in regards to the notion of the propaganda that is pushed on us since birth. This notion that you have to vote for a giant douche or a turd sandwich (note SP propaganda).

That's what is keeping us here. This notion for keeping the status quo.

This is an affront to reality and evolution... and also part of the fucking illusion that is life and that is what we have to confront with on a daily basis.

we have what our senses present us, we have our emotions, we have our knowledge, we have our experience... and science time and time again tells us that we are being lied to.

We have some things we call scientific theory's and we look to them as pieces of information that we can get our bearings with so to speak. I don't want to say facts or truth, as again I want to reiterate - reality lies to us. So I attempt to enter things in when I'm not engaged with others or having other distractions, in a dis-associative manner in order to "try and be" as objective as possible. Which again I believe science says that while attempts can be made we don't really have a full set of cohorts to gather more accurate information. Then we are presented with mathematics... that boggles my mind. How de we have this abstract idea that is language of the universe? I struggle with math severely... but I know that it is the foundation for so much.

So I got to thinking about the concept of casting my vote and it has me really frustrated in this propagandized notion about you have to vote for one or the other.

Which led me to thinking about how blind love really is.

I'm looking at Cornel West as a candidate, Biden can go suck eggs - no more capitalists - no more war mongers/enablers.

Now I've seen a few of his lectures on WEB DuBois and I've sorta dipped my toe in this avenue of the "kill them with love" (my emphasis) ideology, that certain circles on the left emphasize.I was thinking about how often certain proponents in liberal democratic circles love to use this type of propaganda of compassion. Google "how democrats have failed".

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Manufacturing_Consent

The problem I'm having is not seeing the chaos that is here, that is reality, that humanity continues it's attempts to control with disastrous consequences.

Love is susceptible to similar issues as any other polarized thought. 

Blinded with hate

Blinded by love

My conundrum stems from how to reconcile the following, I know there are a number of things outside my control. Controlling how I react to situations primarily, but what is this that drives me from being lazy? I am fighting against this drive to want to do nothing, because I have rationalized this... or is that part of my programming? Will/NoWill

 

I find myself at times in analysis paralysis... but also wondering about how susceptible I am to new thoughts and ideas and how they drive me at times. I need to go shopping... craft stuff. 

and I forgot the other thing I was gonna right about...