In my minds eye

Behaviorsssss

Am I emotionally attached to confirmation bias??

So I'm very very very curious about psychology.. human behavior.. science.. metaphysics.. philosophy.. history.. art..  but mostly what does it mean to be human...

So I spend fairly decent amount of time on those topics..

Neuroscience.. consciousness..

And am very self aware or so I think... Jury is out still.. so I know my personality type more or less.. I know what interests me.. I've had a semester or so on human biology.. behavior.. psychology.. evolution.. cosmology..

Read up on enough history now that I love it all and have fits and spurts of interests on different topics on any give day.. but generally get up to speed with a week or so on these topics.. cliff notes.. which gets me further interested to rabbit trail even further..

I've noticed that a lot of my thoughts are starting to paint a bigger correlating picture.. or so I believe.. my skeptical mind ever present of not being tricked.. so often I'm remembering how nuance was never an option.. it's most likely not a dichotomy to choose from...

That said.. I do feel there are two fundamental aspects that would benefit humanity more than anything...

Knowing objective self awareness

Critical thinking skills

These alone would give humanity a punctuated equilibrium event of such strategic proportions history probably would never know..

That said.. I doubt it would ever happen..

I firmly believe.. from current ideas in physics about what reality is. Freewill.. things of this nature and I think that while evolution is very real and documented, this includes social and biological, that humanity is entwined in a balance of sorts. Considering light being one of the most fundamental aspects of reality that we know. We also know that light has mass, is a particle and a wave. We use it to measure distance in light years. We have theories (not Theory) about it being transformed into a ordinary perceivable object. Star Trek's holodeck being a modern day depiction of what that could be based on the science of today. Specifically math, which is more or less deemed one of the only things we on Earth can actually trust as being unbiased.

So yeah I think a lot.

Now.. when I rabbit trail i look up JSTOR articles.. scientific papers.. colleges.. professors lectures... Science related websites.. i firmly believe that a diversity in education.. experience.. and beliefs..

Though I do have a caveat to all of this..

Evidence.. benefit to the community.. and is there a way to honor past traditions based on new evidence?

I'm not spiritual.. I'm not 100% against it.. just 99%

I think there's just the mind and body...

Spiritual and this shamanic ideologies..

Ehn.. I get it.. this tie to existence.. the world.. animals.. everything thing.. i get that.. but I don't separate it from my mind... They are one..

It's because I know . That I am evermore grateful..

There is a universal harmony.. though I'm not sure humanity can overcome biology.

Ideas change and you must adapt with updated information. Time doesn't stop just because you think your formal education is complete. To do otherwise is poison for the mind and body.

Self discipline is needed.. though I think these are by products of the two topics above.

So I get emotional when I read something that confirms and idea that I have had about other things I've read/experienced and formulated a personal theory... Which I freak out about and question...

I have a lot to still read and this is all pre freshman thoughts... Armchair science geek opinionated.. please do your own validation of actual reality.

Again.. I know that varies by person.

fyi - added more on my phone after this...