2024

 This will be the next step inwards in our path of the dystopian society. I believe that humanity has been on this path ever since we had slavery as a concept, the disregards for humanity all for the deranged thought of the masses ignorance. What were we to do... to not appease the masses spells certain doom because they will NEVER EVER allow the perception of total failure to occur. Not when you have a fragmented society as you do today or so I'm lead to believe, I'm not questioning history I'm questioning what in the fucking wide wide world of earth do these people think that there would be a positive outcome. We are always in a perpetual arms race against the FUD of humanity. The free world and not so free world (it's all an illusion) leaders that tell us grin an bear it, relief is right around the corner with the NEXT election cycle, if only you'd vote.

Trapped in a cycle of go no where, perpetual stagnation all the while the wedge between equitable sharing is a concept only for children apparently, furthering the dystopian noose around the neck of humanity and all it's contradictions. That those that claim to have the best interest in for the constituents is a tale old as time. Throughout history we are presented with the atrocious behavior of humanity in the guise of leadership fail time and again. Antiquity is LITTERED with examples.. but one only has to look at the failed government this country has had to deal with since the start. The sheer ignorance of self awareness makes me think that the Enlightenment period was just another circle jerk in humanities attempt to extol it's cancerous virtues of curiosity that doom itself as it rescues. Shooting oneself in the foot.

I'm conflicted.. because I feel like I do nothing, I do nothing but ramble incoherently into this echo chamber and on to these keys...  I feel like knowledge is a trap.. I feel this weight of lead descending through my body, a messenger of doom, a messenger of a reality that I feel I can't escape.. trapped in a recursive state of confirmation bias... I know.. or at least I like to believe that I think I know and understand the concept of behavior modification and the we as people are capable, but to what extent are we are people actually able to make some sort of meaningful and last change that makes us more than we are.

I feel ashamed for writing that, i have a great deal of disdain for any sense of ego getting in the way of reality. I may loathe myself a bit much, and I've heard others say it's a sense of humility. I don't like attention to myself, but I like the company a few people. I like to think I think I know who I am.. I'm fairly self aware of my behaviors, but know that I'm probably blind to more than I realize.. to yeah.. I'm a bit hyper aware of all that.. so there could very well be this thing ADHD, learning disabilities... but I'm also feeling very UNCERTAIN and DOUBTFUL and I guess FEARFUL... but I could name off a bunch of things but honestly I have no clue.

so.. with the way things are.. I believe we are entering the very early and obvious stages towards a dystopian society that we've only dreamed about either through books or film or other media, we've been talking about the imperfect world ever since we had a comparison to it.

So I have this thought... When ever we write of some place better we are using our own existence as the polar opposite, while not explicitly implied as certain cultures would more than likely have the religious idea of a hell or purgatory or "some place where da bad peeps go". While we can moderately comprehend the hell concept, it's our day to day experiences in the living world that people operate and process all that they see or do or interact with around in this reality. This is what they use a frame of reference, look at today's fictional stories that use past historical events as inspiration. Humanity is it's own worst enemy. So I don't really have any data but just looking at history and the evolutionary theory as described in biology and just applying it everything in reality. It's littered in our business speech, how to grow things organically or evolving oneself. So when we first learned of a Utopia, Heaven, Shangri La, anywhere but here. We are using this subconsciously, because it's only this world that we can relate to make a comparison.

Dystopian society has been here for awhile...