Why I tend not to listen to music I grew up with... why I avoid emotionally triggering music.

 So I was cruising through my YT history and stumbled back on the Cyndi Lauper Prince cover which gets me all worked up.. I stated as to why in that post.

There's this weird sickly addiction that I can see how people get wrapped up in an endless cycle. So the video got me doing a bit of a Prince retrospective...

Review of his albums.. ones I know and ones I don't... Wikipedia review.. listening to old tunes and songs I miss..

Glamorous Life is a song that'll get me all worked up and it's an absolutely zero emotional connection... it's this fictitious notion of a nebulous non existent fantasy land idea of a past that never was. It's the lamentations of an imaginary situation that never was... a childhood that is gone and can't be relived... rewritten.

 

I have these weird hooks... these tethers that are rooted in some sort of gnawing attachment to a grab bag of melancholy emotions based on a wish sandwich..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hz0UvIZw-Y0

The Chips, ''Rubber Biscuit'' (1956)

I've noticed that If I spend too much time "teasing" my emotional state I am able to get that existential angsty feeling... 

I'm waiting.. and I'm doing.. but waiting... I'm not producing.. sigh.. I feel.. anxious.. I feel like I'm comparing myself to others and losing sight and focus.. my thing isn't their thing..