optimistically a realist

So for some weird reason (perhaps the T Day cooking high), I have this weird bit of optimism. Normally this would be grounds for concern, though this time I think I'll just embrace it.

I have some high hopes going forward, and in fact feeling maybe a bit more confidant in some choices and goals for next year. Definitely gonna be busy, and hope to get the ball rolling. I have more than enough notes and material to get the ball rolling. Actually it's almost comical in some respects.. or so I think, at just how much material I do have to use.

5 yrs, and while part of me will miss here, more seems to be laughing at this while absurdity of it all. Yeah for fam but ugh at same time. Not my monkeys.. not my circus.. but it takes a village.

The idea of having just a conversation with myself...

I'm the moron.. and I view others just the same, my mental issues make me struggle with others.. etc..