paradoxical truths

So I've been on a bit of a inspirational surge of activity...

Now while I do make it an occasional habit to document my moments here and there.. I do not do a daily archive of events..

Did my shit smell more than yesterday? I picked a massive booger out my nose.. more hairs plucked from the ears... Nose.. misc new place..

Seriously weed calms me the fuck down...

Now I do like to post insights and good/bad news..

For a bit now I have been hung up for lack of a better phrase, but hung up is not something I should get worked up about.. if I'm at an impasse or things seem stagnant.. remember seasons.. everything in time.. cycles are real and creativity doesn't happen all at once... So while this is occurring I really want to make the most of it..

My contemplating the ALL as of late has been around the hung up notion I am in at the moment.. life/reality is a simulation.. and by viewing it as such it does allow me to disassociatiate from reality from time to time or at any prescribed moment that I haven't surrendered to my emotions... Sort of the notion that I mix up spectrum thought, that is polar opposites as in the two examples of an extreme and paradoxes.. jumbo shrimp, military intelligence.. etc.

Paradox, something that shouldn't be but is.  Life is filled with them.. go Google that shit.

Especially when you try to remember how you may have felt on a particular issue but have since done a full 180 turn about on it. Going from ignorant to less ignorant.  Though here is something that I'd like to expand on just a smidge. I fully believe that we are 10000000000% dumber than a box of rocks. Case in point and this may just be waaay to simplistic. However the default position is zero correct? Philosophical speaking. That is unless proof is provided for a claim the default position is to assume it is not so.. zero, nada, nothing.. not making up reasons.

So if the evidence to date from science provides the best picture of current reality, by default we are just evolutionary self learning machines, that encodes and stores core events in ones life that gets passed on to the next generation. Now some of these have become hardwired into subsection in the brain as instinctive traits, habits that become or or less prevalent over ones lifetime through the various physiological stages one goes thru as a human up to date. The paradox of thought.. of consciousness... To be able to think but not.. to imagine a reality so true that others mock your insanity for embracing it.. the way humans align and faction themselves... That the faulty nature in ignorantly commiting to a belief structure that requires more than a high school education in a small town in mid America with a population dictated by churches and an over glorification of sports. 

So, without going totally off the rails. I firmly believe that with what I have gone through and what I have read and fully have to believe what I say..

There are thousands of years of recorded history and your dumb ass can barely get past 18 years... You dumb as fuck. Educate yourself.. one one is going to save you but yourself. The Ancient Greeks had the same fucking problems... Learn how language matters and the words that you use matter and the way they are arranged matter and that if you don't know the rules of the game you will be played... As you are now by everyone who owns a part of the game.. and unless you don't have to work.. you owned.

It doesn't have to be this way... A bit of my opinionated summary to a history book I recently read that was a new view of how human society has evolved based on multi disciplines knowledge to date. The Dawn of Everything thing.

Case in point.. reading one book that essentially game me a readers digest version of what the knowledge is to date.. again.. multi discipline... Years and years to get an entry level admissions ticket to begin to say I have a decent idea of the place, but let's go explore those ideas. Why do we have this ability to develope ideas in to practical tools??  That's some amazing fucking shit.. surface level.. sooo much we take granted.. we over look the day to day and mundane.. which is why you can use them as a means to meditate... 

Example.. organizing ones thoughts... I do this quite a bit.. and it's something that like to use again and again..  it's a genetic dna thing..

Copy.. cheat.. steal.. procure.. obtain.. apprehend.. covertly borrow on a semi permanent basis.. sail the high seas...

So if I struggle with something.. I want to know enough.. whatever amount of data my brain seems to crave at any given period of time.. if it's a new task I look for things on how to.. depending what the task at hand is... Knowledge is power... Just I can't seem to generate enough to pay the bills.. my thing with art is using what I know... Granted it's for who I am at any given time...

Balance is a paradox in the process that is more about ebb and flow.. or perhaps it's my viewpoint.. as far as I envision it... To me.. balance in an Eastern philosophy perspective about balance evokes a light/dark, ying/yang ☯️ elements, withe cycles being a dominant topic in many of historical writings within mainstream contemporary writings as well. It's a part of the culture. Also noting that it's not just limited to Eastern cultures, it appears to me that once monotheistic preferences became predominant that it was of the adolescent budding of human hubris took effect and those of the Old Ways had their beliefs stopped out. Cycles also being an inseparable belief as well.