to be able to just begin to see...

 I'm trying to build something here that shows where my logic is coming from..

that that at virtually every aspect at life is built on experience in some particular fashion. Having fundamental skills, to which I feel at my almost 51 yrs of age are foundational in the basics of Humanities.. Philosophy primarily, with math, and other sciences.. Sociology, History, Biology - taught to each persons needs, but with the fundamentals taught to all. The desire for one to truly be taught skills of importance and not skills to contribute to this dysfunctionality of  the current systems that govern our reality. Think of skills, and in every conceivable myriads of options that occurs in our day to day lives. The trick is what the hell am I talking about in regards to skills. These skills that are taught by the ever present mundacity we all share and in various states of blissful ignorance. The trick is we dumb monkeys are so brainwashed by the fucking scientific reality of what things are.. and here is where the fundamental sciences come into play.. and here is where the history of humanity comes into to play..

Why trust you US government of a damn thing.... They have violated every treaty with the indigenous peoples who live here, all in the name of ignorant beliefs of superiority, which we see how history unfolds with the colonizing west decimating the globe for centuries and to today!

SLAVERY is still LEGAL in the US.. watch the 13th Amendment Doc...

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/13th_(film)

Read the 13th better yet start at the beginning.. Learn about the basics... Learn about everything... Use all your senses... document.. most, if not everything you can about your life that is a turning Point in your attitude, feeling, decision, situation that said you know what I don't agree with that anymore.. put those thoughts down on paper, or digital, or however means you can document.. what ever records you thoughts in the best manner of you being able to ACCURATELY PORTRAY your feelings and thoughts patterns in the speech or words you use, your facial expressions.. again.. Look to ancient history to begin your journey on knowledge, always start at the beginning.. but be forewarned... BEWARE those who say "THIS IS THE WAY"... always be skeptical, unless you have adequate belief that they are less likely to commit harm than if a stranger. 

Here again, understanding of an avenue of any of these skills takes time, and believe it or not I think that most people given whatever situation appoints them will be on the spectrum of evolution of life and this reality, via Science.. History.. understanding one's self, in that to say in any other terms I feel more alive on drugs than I was 3 hours ago.. I finally took a shower last night after a week or so.. still haven't shaved and was counting the days of my B Day as a D day.. and my pop calls.. I said yes waaay to fast.. and I found my self even in the anhedonic state I currently am // was in, I am very much in this belief that with a proper well rounded exposure to reality, coupled with a fully developed humanities education focus on critical thinking and understanding of reality through the lens of full spectrum learning, unfiltered age level appropriate depiction of the enslavement of a handful that the rest of the world is under. Literally governed/ruled by liars, thieves, & murderers...

 

Police & Thieves!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N3A8uNG3GH4

 

I like this cover.. but also the OG..

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4dZky936vtU

 

I lived on a steady diet of the absurd ... my E key is fucked up.. noooo... it is not registering.. it may be my weak keystroke... that was weird..

very high.. this is a bit difficult.. ok.. just focus.. i'm such a dipshit..

I should have been euthanized as a child.. for reals.. the fucked up shit I did as a kid.. I recognize I did A LOT of shitty things... people, property.. myself.. I also recognize the my actions are not way not by my action by I now am aware (that mindful moment went you have this perceptible understanding of the reality you live in and woven by the year under your proverbial belt, the life you have lived to get to said point you continued (I just had to check my paragraph.. struggling with that word.. there.. but my eeee wasn't being filled in a few places...

the irony is I very much believe in this notion of as we are all beings of space matter.. that has through various cosmological, and evolutionary, et al., sciences. Balance is the way, but unde'rstand

Knowing we are on a tiny little ball on this big ass planet, we really seem to have been duped by the worst in humanity to lead us.. this full steam ahead to biologically upending the planetary ecological syste'ms that have been run full steam ahead by the global powerful interests... the financial interests, that have carte blanch on the worst employment conditions around the globe.. reports say that it's from 4 to 10 corporations that control the planet....

So this is the big reason I took the candy.. when I have really shitting emotional moments... I love me a kick you in the balls trip... Big thumbs up to Tesla Bar.. last 3 squares... it's a stay at home dose.... thirsty at the the moment.. last of tea it is.. jasmine.. brewed in fridge... big sippy thermos.. 24 oz.. smokey clear plastic, flip top, grey, with rubber like lower grippy band of flip lid.. skinny hard plastic.. I know now why people hold on to all there fucking shit..  That plastic bottle I'm using is actually had since before we left for NC... see.. this experience.. what it the meaning of the emotions that I am experiencing...

also.. the up above.. apostrophe marks betwe'n the words was wher th EEEEEE key didn't? work

 ?was very high and had a difficult moment on that one...

Not having an income is aggrovating to say the least..

Why did I say yes?? I have' to get up fucking early!!!

no more chopped cheese leftovers... vegan mean, not vegan cheese.. Mont-Jack American slices.... seriously.. reality is an illusion.. what the fuck is this helllll.. that was a weird spasm....

 

Te'*a time... 

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