what made me happy makes me sad

Reading about the deathw of Louis Gossett jr today and thinking of the handful of movies I have seen him in and the stories mentioned of his his experiences with racism felt sad and inspiring. Prompting me to revisit some of what I've seen and to also watch what I haven't. Afterwards I was obviously feeling a bit more attached than I had realized and was trying to think of things that would cheer me up but even those things tend to make sad. Simple happy songs have turned into memories of sadness from the time now gone.

But why do I become sad .. why is it an emotional response?? Is it in my control... Cognitive...control.. reminds me of that movie I watched yesterday.. Pygmalion from 1938... The lead male character was a no feeling pompous ass... But c'est la vie all for the sake of story telling