"Reality"

 So in the wake of my step mothers death I'm thinking about the totality of reality. lol

Then read this...

Especially around how we perceive it, and how it's our experiences that shape us (positive and negative experiences that become our guiding path our referential moments, memory anchors that help shape our reality to be and at present. I personally believe that life does not have a simple answer, but once you understand enough science and history coupled with the time for introspection, weighing yourself against all of this. This being the opportunities to reflect, contemplate, meditate on the information you have up to date coupled with new experiences and information.  Reality for me is this... I see how evolution/the science of the "Big Bang" (universal expansion), coupled with biological evolution, philosophy, history, psychology, physics, and a spattering (smattering?) of everything else sciency... PBS shows, TV, Film, etc.. School... Understanding that humans are complex, and layered and being able to understand yourself and the world around you. Emotionally aware, cognitively aware, am I here??? 

That's the thing about reading.. all it's rabbit trails....

When you see the intersections of reality come together.. the connections in a web of information, of experiences, of your life, of who you are and the world around you then you'll know. The information is there to pull yourself out of your shit.. you just have to accept you are nothing... pure humility. Tear yourself down.. strip your ego from yourself.. rebuild it in the image YOU want... who.. do.. you.. want.. to.. be..

I want to be a better person than who I've been... both in what I think are fundamentals... better in my health.. mindful of my physical well being... in all aspects.. but understanding the balance needed in all things... my health and as I age dictates choice I have to make know because I WASN'T mindful 20+ years ago...  Mental well being... same as above.. How cognizant am I of my habits and behaviors and do you understand the current typical biological responses that drive them. The psychology behind human behavior... By understand I'm talking college level 101 classes in around human behavior, sociology, see above...