Pissy mood

 I'm grumbling this morning.. grumbling about all the little bullshit things.. that really don't matter but here we are.

I'm tired of sharing space with others... I think that's it in a nut shell...

When you have people with divergent ways of going about their lives that - education/privilege/life choices/goals/aspirations even - it can cause stress for those who are up tight bitches.

Is this that though? Am I being too much of a bitch? 

I'm not the person I once was.. I don't tolerate or I should say I don't put up with other people's shit that intervenes in mine... which is another reason as to why I doubt I'll be in another relationship....

a) do i really want to to in that kind of effort? 

b) I'm too fucking tired atm to come up with other reasons.. 

again I'm feeling pissy..

I really can't fucking stand people like my mother... lazy good for nothings.. but that was me.. 

how can I be upset when i fully know that life is a chaotic shit storm of who the fuck knows you'll get.

When I know what I know.. how can I be upset? Anxiety.. impatient... fear?

I'm over a lot of what reality has to offer.. at least the advert shit. This capitalist offered curated special limited engagement once in a lifetime offer...

my anxiety levels are up... i can tell by my leg jitters.. 

balance.. really chaotic mood... not sad.. not depressed.. pissy.. feeling like I don't have time... or that reality is going to shit on my cereal soon...