cultivation

So I'm thinking about the cycle humanity... Socially speaking.

Because it's difficult for humans myself included and I'm probably being myopic in this, to see beyond themselves. 

How humanity is in this position of dispariting ideas and the lazy greed fueled ptb continued to drive us towards the edge, so what if a bunch of people die in poor impoverished countries directly as a result of a super power or by proxy...

This is where writing being becomes so important... Not so much for others but to get the thoughts down.. for notes.. this will be compiled at some point... Some point... Soooo much fam shit..

Such conflict atm.. internally... Why do i let it bug me?? Why do I get emotional.. apparently or supposedly it's because I care...

So my emotional how could you be so not observant internal monologue is because I'm emotionally concerned or something if the sort..

Hmmm... So now i want think about that.. which means probably not... Honesty.. I'm a bit stoned atm.

Why does emotional concern become aggressive?? Defense response?

Idea... It's easier and requires less mental resources if not in a specific care category???

So I'm self validating it happens???

Honestly no fucking clue... If I knew... See this is where I feel it's the physiological aspects that drive and determine out futures more than conscious thought... Our biological drivers... Mentally we finds the means and ways to achieve... Everything else is secondary that doesn't support those drivers.

Can we make a conscious effort to influence them.. absolutely.. we can see the effects.

So it takes conscious effort to effect change.

Desire... Why do you want change?

What for .. goals.. ambitions..

It's a self replicating, but don't confuse this with a one and done... Conscious effort .. continuously replenishing with new information, relevant, all imcompasing, foundational, factual, historical, relaxing, enjoyable, and at times entertaining.

Balance...

Learn your cycle...patterns...

Document.. journal...