So my mental state is all other the place today... I've found myself lashing out at others... mentally and that's a no bueno...
I'm feeling frustrated.. about a great deal of many things.. and I'm noticing that I'm being SUPER sensitive to situations...I find myself not being able to chill... I have zero chill... at least with others.. or do i.. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
fear uncertainty and doubt... that is life..
I fear for my family and my situation..
the future is always uncertain
and so I doubt on what I need to do..
but I'm working
I'm trying to go to school
I feel like I'm trying and failing though.. that even if I start to act in a manner that seems prudent it ends in disaster... and I'm really trying to see it all. the big picture.. every fucking things I can.. but life.. life gets in the fucking way.. things beyond my control...
I find myself at a proverbial mental crossroads so to speak.. it's the constant choice making that is getting to me maybe... lol free will...
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