There and back again.... How I overcame life and all it's troubles, mostly.: August 2019

Sunday, August 25, 2019

Everyone is a slave to something

Distractions... Games.. tv.. etc... Other things that don't matter.. I know I get in cycles and ruts...

I bitch and complain about my situation... But I put myself here.. and it is what it is.

I need change... I'm not capable or proficient in killing myself and I don't think I have anything worthwhile to provide... Or skills of any measurable degree.. I know how weak willed I am.. I crumble at the slightest perceived fault or criticism.

I don't deal well with people... I need to change. I have to change.

Sunday, August 11, 2019

Stuck in a vicious circle

I don't know if it was better or worse being on meds...

Meds.. it just seemed like a prolonged waiting before the next episode or wave.

Without it's just constant..

I've made piss poor attempts at suicide in the past few weeks... I get more upset at my failure..

Wake up and it's immediately back to square one of feeling like shit...

Feeling inadequate.. incomplete.. a failure.. undeserving.. the brain is running a million miles a minute repeating negative thought after negative thought.

I'm at the lowest I've ever been...
And I see no way out but death..
Yet I'm afraid...
I both do and don't want to die.
I'm on a planet with 7 billion voices screaming in silence...

I'm being drowned out... By everything.

I don't want to endure this hell any longer.

Slightly intelligent but not smart

I'm unable to bring myself to do anything,y brain gets ahead of me before I get too far.

I over analyze or talk myself out of it due to certain preconceived thoughts.

Example... I stop trying to look for help or reaching out forh as I think my situation won't qualify, aka generally being classified as a high functioning person with issues.

I may look, but that's about as far as it goes.

Not so zippy

So I tried again... Zip ties this time.

I can't do it... I'm not successful.. so I'm not surprised. I don't succeed at anything but losing.

Saturday, August 10, 2019

Child Appropriate

I hear this phrase and think that it's just another lie towards kids.

Now I'm not saying they need to be exposed to drunken drug fueled violent orgy fests, though I do think kids need to be more exposed to reality. Museums.... hmm.. less entertainment.

Wednesday, August 7, 2019

AXP

This is what led me down the path on logic and reason...

The Atheist Experience... Matt Dillahunty primarily.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=liX1F0_xqmg

Bullshit and how to avoid it.

INTRODUCTION

An unexamined life is not worth living. - Socrates

I discovered that quote sometime in my late 30’s or early 40’s. At this point in my life I was just coming to terms with being an atheist after spending most of my 20’s and a little bit of 30’s as an evangelical bible thumping, filled with the spirit talking in tongues, witnessing on drunken thoroughfares in So Cal, mission trips to Mexico non denominational Christian. Church was a full time profession, doing all that I could to be ready and available to the church and to Jesus.

My foray into atheism actually stemmed from my desire to be a worthy vessel because I knew the truth and the truth will stand up against anything. Or so I thought. I started with reviewing the available evidence online about the early church history and then got into the establishment of Christianity from Constantine. Then realized that it was all manufactured and manmade.

Now some of you may be going ok but how? How do you know it’s man made. For those that didn’t, this is an example of bullshit. Well maybe not 100% bullshit but that last sentence is definitely needing some more info.

Also the story in and of itself is anecdotal, a personal story based on my experience. This is just one type of evidence of many that is used to determine plausibility and factualness to events. Part of this……. (Re-write intro - use common everyday examples.. Pop culture.. Etc for examples.) There are no quick fixes, and anyone who says otherwise is selling you bullshit. Learning and changing and growing as a person is a life-long journey. It is filled with ups and downs, this book will hopefully point you in a better direction when it comes time to make difficult choices or decisions. Also this book hopes to give you the tools to determine your best course of action between those times to make them as minimally impacting as possible.

CH1 - Words are words are words are words.

The words you use have meaning and purpose. Know how to use them effectively. Stop using ambiguous terms, be specific and factual avoid “fish tales”, exaggerations. Expand, your vocabulary.

CH2 - How do I know what I know… or what is is.

Intro to philosophy, basic logic, laws of logic. (Lots of different examples, videos, pictures, essays, & how to ask the right question

CH3 - Everything has an origin

Re-establishing your knowledge base. Review your education level, identify your strengths & weaknesses. Remember, you are bound only by your ignorance. That is, dumb will kill you. If you believe technology physically harms you, you probably have a mental condition and not a physical one. Much like folks thought the Earth was the center of the galaxy, they too were stricken with the dumb, aka ignorance. I’ll share a little secret, ALL OF US ARE DUMB to varying degrees or another. Yet here’s a trap, a trap so many of us fall into. What one or more people are knowledgeable of is not a deciding factor in and of itself, there usually is a vast array of additional information available that you have to decide.

How well do you know this topic? What about the opposing views? Can I relate it to anything else? What’s the history? Mental health? Physical health? Environment considerations? Et al.

Hell you could continue down that path of what other factors come into play for some time. I was not a good student, in fact public education and me have a long sordid history. Ambivalence, betrayal, violence and apathy convoluted into an afterschool special. I’ve always had an interest in learning, I guess there were just a number of factors that came into play. Homelife, parents, genetics, mental health, and all the wonderful events that occur when those elements are not, let’s say nominal.

Most people don’t really spend anytime in further education once they’ve either completed (dropped out?) of high school or some college degree. (CITE)

Most people

CH4 - Know thyself - Introspection

What is self awareness? What tools does this provide to me? How does this improve my life?

CH5 - What now?

Time to take a step back and evaluate. Know we need to be open to question everything.

CH6 - Critical Thinking or how to actually think & respond properly when trying to weed through life’s bullshit.

CH7 - Dark Side of the Moon

It’s all a spectrum...

CH8 - Historical examples - Commentary

CH9 - Contemporary examples - Commentary

CH10 - Resources

Online resources aside from the usuals.

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POST INTRO

The quote from Socrates has recently changed meaning since I first read it. Originally for me the first thing that I grabbed from it was that you shouldn’t live your life in a bubble, that is unexposed to the world and life and it’s experiences… examine life. I spent most of life exploring the tangible and continue to do so. It's the intangible that has now become the focus of my attention, aka knowledge and it’s pursuit of it.

Now I see this as more of an introspection statement. Why do you believe what you believe? Think about things you never think about…. I know this may sound weird. How do I think about things that I’ve never thought of or even maybe heard of.

I know 10 years ago I was struggling with who I was, what I thought, what I believed. It wasn’t atheism that saved me.. It was critical thinking. This is what I want to get out, as everyone that has these can FUNDAMENTALLY change their lives for the better.

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This was the outline for a book I was contemplating...

The system checks istself.

The struggle we experience in life is the struggle for society and the identities that are present within it, from traditional to contemporary, sub-cultures and foreign cultures. We all experience common biological experiences that have been talked about year after year, decade after decade and century upon century. They history for tomorrow is today. We are experiencing it like never before. Hell it’s 50 years since humans landed a man on the moon. Doubt they make 2024 or 2028 but hey I keep pushing for that. What some condemn others embrace and lead where the evidence goes. The evidence is trying to be distorted by those willfully ignorant due to presuppositions. They need to be called out for it and the government should sever any faith based funding, because I’m sorry I can’t support willful ignorance to reality. Evidence based life.

Now that’s what the fundamentalists do or the fascists, totalitarians, those who run the economies of the world. The evil that men do… sorry but if there is a hell, have they been here? Sure that was a jab, and a bit tongue in cheek, self deprecating, but also… The hypocrisy of man… the proclamation of I want peace but only if they are dead. What are we doing? My make believe friend is more bigger and badder than your make believe friend. Again science explains all… <wink> Clarissa <wink>

The youth of today coming to face reality faster than the generation before and the differences of cultures and peoples morphing and changing seconds at a time.

I have to say, I’m perplexed at the moment. Here was something before me all the time, but it took (continues to take as well) years of trial and error? What was it that was a defining moment that led me to this moment in time? Mind you there is no supernatural thought in that sentence. Is this part and parcel of the idea of there being no such thing as free will. Has neuroscience put that conversation to bed?

I do know that I don’t think like I did when I was 18 or 28 or 38 and I get this nagging feeling of floating. I’ll liken the experience to learning to swim. Say for example you are thrown in a body of water, that at first seems to be calm, inviting, and peaceful as you lie floating in it. Yet after a number of years you notice one day that the water has changed and you’ve gone from that state of bliss to barely keeping your head above water. You scramble to look for help but you feel blinded by the waves of information crashing over you again and again. Finding guidance from your surroundings you end up on a well worn path. The failed stories of ancestors and lost glory relived again and again. The promises of parents turning out to be pointless platitudes from kids teaching kids nursery rhymes. Yet others, there must be others who share in this special knowledge or am I just that dumb. Based on what I do know, I’m going with dumb. I’ll prove it if you’d like. In fact considering what little information I do currently possess in this fatbag of jello we call a brain, that I don’t know jack You don’t know jack either, because as far as you can tell this is one of them thinking books or some conspiracy of a shadow organization bent on world domination by socialist means via the unseen forces of my imaginary friend orchestrating it all.

I’m looking at the basic of basics… How do we know what we know? What is the purpose of language? How do we determine the reality that I experience is the same as your experience?

By what standard do we measure things?

Man’s time and again failed attempt to proclaim an invisible beyond all space and time man behind the curtain, greater than your wildest imaginations could attempt to even begin to conceptualize, he changes for the next generation of treading familiar path.

Natural law…. The greatest teacher for those who’ve wanted to know… the path seems empty, but you’ve managed to get past the breakwater. You managed to find a place less traveled, but rich beyond imagination, such art, such knowledge. The oh wow moments of youth continue… you just have to put in the time and effort. They real history is waiting to be read, the full account of how civilizations rose and fell. The beginnings of reason and of logic. How much are we in control of… why do we sit in fear… fear of failure… stop looking so far a head..

The system checks itself…. Nature it’s system… it’ll check itself.

You get a cold or the flu… your system produces antibodies to fight the foreign invader… the system adapts to itself… the system will still be here even after we are long gone… the system that man has artificially created.

Say for instance the current anthropocene epoch we are currently at the beginning of… how long does it last? What happens if unchecked? Who will check?

The earth will self check… the current man dominated scene will be gone.

What are these moments of it fucking makes sense now… ephipany.. Is that really the word? Apparently these are rare… though I just think I should investigate some more..

I recall having something similar 5-6 years ago. I think I may have found something…

The basics of life…

How to know what you know and why.

Basic Human Physiology - how to identify human cues in social situations. What drives these subconscious cues? What other social unconscious behaviours are there? How we perceive the world around us? How we are easily tricked by these experiences?

Additional topics - All the worlds a stage

How we can determine what is reality - Break down the Laws of Logic, provide multiple different examples. Words, details, graphs, videos, etc.

Look for examples throughout history, philosophy,

Logic & Reason - Using words with math like precision. Go through early philosophy, thought experiments, etc.

The Very Very Very Very Very Very Very Very Very brief history of a self destructive tribe of somewhat rational hairless apes. - Look at the historical world view on how opposing thought has been met out. The historical view on epistemology, how it was religiously influenced and post Enlightenment. Review its entirety… warts and all.. The historical impacts thought has had on society. No emphasis on any particular political organization, must be impartial and unabridged and source material as possible. Any commentary that is attributed to a submitted source. Non disclosure omits submission and counts as 1 strike. 2 strikes and you are permanently on the do not cite list. Strikes can be appealed, through reasoned argument. You must be able to use effective rhetoric to get your appeal considered. The following are exempt from appeals, attempts at plea change after ruling, that you are mathematically guilty based off physical evidence. Let the scientific evidence be truly Blind Justice, and tempered by the history of curious wisdom..

Self Awareness - How to process all of this or do you already have an answer?
The first thing people start doing once they hit puberty is go for some sort of personal identification ritual de adolescence…. This is where you go from I love you Mommy Daddy… to IT’S NOT A PHASE MOM!!

And you are probably not even close to being done. Well I can again only talk for myself… but I think I have identified some interesting tales this side of the globes.

Conversely I feel ashamedly embarrassed even writing this, embarrassed to think that my experience can be of any importance, why am I even doing this, and I have to remind myself because who the else fuck is going to tell it. Mentally - muchas gracias T dog - I’m in a much better place than I have been in a few months. Actually I think I’m better, because hey look wow.. Words.. Words that I actually 100% agree with. And not completely erase the whole thing. To one again say why bother. This human condition that we are all in. The different phases people go through. From birth to death you are a living example of the process of evolution. Try to visually think of you birth to your 90’s or beyond. Think of all the different growth sizes and cycles you will go through, see how you change in shape. This is but yet another example of all things… they evolve from infants to teens to teens to adults. Understand that this is a simplified model, there are stages in between those stages, because it’s not like you went from infant to teen overnight. You had your toddler years, first school days, awkward pre teen years, followed by awkward teen years (your mileage may vary), followed by your confused as fuck young adult years, stumbled into 20-somethinghood of never knowing. What do I want to do. I sorta of like this.. But hey this makes me feel better or I have a greater chance to enjoy more perceived benefits when in reality really just turns out to be a lateral move. However!!!!!

It really is a time to self reflect… and self reflect I shall… so these are the questions…

For lack of a better term that I can think of at the moment as I type this out… Numero Uno.

What is your mantra?

Who is (say your name)?
Know that you make your purpose
Know that you have the ability to change the future!
Proper exercise of the mind

Using the Laws of Logic/Thought be able to identify
Can I explain what I believe and be true and correct with respect to reality and all that it entails?

Making purpose of your life

Science of the mind

Rinse and repeat..

Where do I begin…. Where do you want to?

Begin Notes section - Philosophy of History

Beginning source was to search on the internet for key terms - philosophy history. Followed by further investigations that lead me to the Wikipedia page.https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Philosophy_of_history

Objective: Is to gain a basic understanding of this branch of philosophy and see what philosophy has to say about the history of the planet earth.

Currently looking at a Quora page about the analytic/continental split. Ok getting way to side tracked on that discussion. Must revisit however.

Note - And just like that.. The thought is gone.. Sigh.. I guess if anything.. It’s the thoughts i lost i miss the most.

END Notes Section

So this one got away as well.. Actually I’m tired now.

Black and white… why are we as people fascinated by black and white situations. How we are prone to these biases and how they impact us learning and adapting or not.

I know I am.. I catch myself most of the time now. Well I like to think so, again. Biases, coupled with our own ignorance.

Are there advanced legal systems? Is there a philosophy of law?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Philosophy_of_law

Well well well… more rabbit trails.

Black and white.. Right or wrong.. True or false.. Why do dichotomies exist? Apparently they are fewer than I thought. For us or against us…

Anywho..

So after watching that Beast that is the global economy show.. Pirated with ad blockers.. I let you know.

Specifically regarding corruption and how it seems to be there do to the prevalent idea life is a spectrum. Sure you have some surface simple answers but it’s taken quite a long time for reason to win out over boogey men and superstitions. Is corruption inherent within humans? There is evidence of cheating in the other primates but these are usually dealt with severely and immediate once discovered from a part, if not the whole tribe or community.

Is corruption something you can get rid of or is there a logical reason as to why not?

When did handedness enter into biology? Whats the advantages/disadvantages? Are there areas of one or the others predominance on Earth?

Anywho…

Why do we shelter children so much?

I’m not saying expose them to war or harmful situations like church, but emphasis the education of being a human versus a machine. We as a society don’t really emphasize that, in fact we do a piss poor job and it’s due to capitalism, lack of foundational True Neutral education in the basics of reality, natural laws without any presuppositional claims, let them explore the world, instead of just creating more scared to death anxiety driven hairless monkees…. Crotch fruit just didn’t fit in there.

I think the Danes… I think there was a recent show I watched where they kindergarden school lets kids be kids, climb trees, all these self exploratory outdoor interactions, being supervised.

Here it is...https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jkiij9dJfcw

We really need to have sanity pull up it’s big long pants and make the kids calm the fuck down.

Why don’t they?? Now that stopped me from writing something else, because they know something else that I don’t? Break time…

Do to popular belief… I’m an emotional basket case… I probably could cry on cue with a handful of depressing thoughts.

The phoniness of childhood that is childhood that is foisted upon the capitalist western world really is the epitome of the great circle jerk that life is.

Currently reading Dale Carnegie… thought this was appropriate..

https://old.reddit.com/r/askphilosophy/comments/bx1vjg/since_there_is_spacetime_is_omnipresence/

I think you'll need to define [eternal](https://www.dictionary.com/browse/eternal) and [omnipresence](https://www.dictionary.com/browse/omnipresence?s=t).

Based off these definitions.

Can spacetime be everywhere at once and not be eternal? Now this asks the question about what is everywhere? The entire universe/cosmos. Do we even know what the universe is? Supposedly the universe is 13.7~B years old. This is based on how far we can measure, now this is similar to taking a 20' tape measure and pulling it all the way out. Is there more to measure? Yes... you just don't have the means to do it at the moment.

Can spacetime be eternal and only in one place?

Philosophy… was not on my list of things that i’d say 20+ years ago would be anything I would be interested… let alone 10 years ago..

Part of this discovery is that it seems to be adding to the list of things I need to study… while all at once overwhelming and exciting at the same time.

The conflict is real… the conflict that emotionally tells me I should end things to begin anew. End the relationship, the marriage, possible other relationships as well.

All because I feel like I’ve come to some sort of eureka understanding about life and reality. One that I’m starting to believe is nothing new.

If philosophy is the gateway, how many others have gone through and not come back?

If not philosophy then science… but I get the gist from Camus on the absurdity, it’s the road trip in and of itself.

History is the past telling the future what not to do.

The present however is only concerned with tomorrow.

I have to say I’ve changed my opinion on when people should have children… for the mental health of all. 35 would be a good age….

This will talk about my beliefs of what is freedom….

Side Note - The DEVO song comes to mind… Freedom of Choice. On that rabbit trail, I was thinking about how my teenage years were emotionally driven by many a song, but nothing quite like Post Punk. The emotions...that still rage today. They are neatly compartmentalized… oh hell they are strewn about the infinite vastness of what I can and can’t remember in this squishy control center.

Life is the ultimate teacher. The human experience… birth.. Life.. death…

The things we do to ourselves… to each other.

We are fearful frightened creatures… ignorant of our ignorance.

Afraid of ourselves and afraid of those not part of the clan.

Fear.. why is it that we are so attached to abstracts. The thoughts.. It’s the thoughts…

Education is the key to survival.

Education is good.. And now I’m drawn into a thought about economics.

Why is life liberty and property a right?

Why do we have rights.. Where do they come from.

is the personal assessment say equal to resolving to get to the facts of the matter….

As a christian at one point in time.. I firmly believed that my attempt to objectively review the evidence lead to my no longer being a theist and eventually becoming a typical atheist. I am not convinced, in fact there is more evidence to his non existence than what can be used as admissible evidence. Anecdotal being the main type of “evidence” being offered, when you can’t test and or reproduce and or verify INDEPENDENTLY of the person saying this story.

I would like to believe I found a series of connections that I wasn’t previously aware of….

Looking at all the evidence.

Essentially it was coming to learn about applying logic and reason by means of critical thinking.

This call is absurd… promotional banners for an application to make workers more productive and make the company look more worker friendly. Though it will probably cut jobs and make it easier to fire employees as well also. Speculating.

Now it’s getting into I know my job and what I can do better than you… but we’ll keep you happy.. Mostly..
So this is life?

The absurdity… the growth from childhood reasoning to the slowly developing process of teen angst… screaming at the absurdity.. The cluelessness doesn’t end… you have to be diligent in what is and what is not. Your eyes can deceive, don’t trust them.

The youth the utter obliviousness to what is about to come… the horrors you’ll be subjected to…

It’s these horrors that transform people… these horrors that may or may not…. Make you a better person.

The understanding of people.. Or at least your noggin you have this idea.. The breakdown of people and how they work.. The cycles of life.. And the perpetuity of fear and curiosity being ever entwined. Fear that drives us to kill each other… fear that drives us to neglect one another… fear that destroys all things…. Hope.. dreams… imagination… from this is what you get to enjoy the fruits of today. It’s from hopes, dreams, & imagination that you can be whatever you want. It’s from hopes, dreams, & imagination that you have science, poetry, music, arts, advanced medicine, democracy, the belief in fairness, the knowing and understanding of how many layers in regards to the complexity of the conscious mind. We have just begun to evolve.

I was just thinking about all the times I’ve stopped and started a journal.. And all the cringey crap that they would be filled with, if you could find them. Good luck.

The absurdity that we can’t be who we’d like to be…. The constraints of societal norms that seems to bind us. This is demonstrated in other primates… the cohesion of the tribe… whats allowed and what isn’t...

I never felt comfortable to talk.. I never felt i had anything worth to say...

I think… I know now.. That I have a number of experiences that I’d like to discuss..or convey..

Looking back.. I can’t really say what it was… was it the dysfunctional family.. Was it the genetic disposition from my mother for depression… was it the absent father… the brother going through his own hell..

Was it the test I failed to take that one time.. Or when I ditched school.. Or life…

Now to stop you right here….. Since day one you have been reinforced with positive or negative influences.

What is a positive.. What is a negative… sure they are results from the actions.. But afterwards they turn to gold… the precious gold wisdom, if you reflect on your experiences.

I’m the one that gets to affect the change.

When I become self aware… when I can see that I am just a speck in the cosmos on a flying mud cake of this side of the milky way…

In the mental exercise that I had earlier today… I realized that I had completely forgot it… and ended up here… on this… the topic of freewill…

I personally believe thus… that by “design” you have no freewill.. That is, the illusion is fully in place… now.. Should one through proper education, personal experience and exposure to foreign cultures come to self awareness, this is what I believe Decartes is most famously known for or was hinting on.. Even if just a bit… I think therefore I am...that until one has the ability to realize what this means… you lack a part of the imagination or the experience or the education required to understand. We could lessen the current level of ignorance currently by emphasising the profound usefulness of the powers of critical thinking. It’s how I got here… and personally I’m very embarrassed by all of this.. And that is the absurd… and gratefulness that I profoundly now feel for those who truly the greatest heroes of all, everyone before me. For it is through everyone that we have the history and the knowledge of that history as we know it today. The sacrifices of everyone, fighting for what they truly believed in their heart of hearts. Has lead us out of the age of physical violence as a response and to a possible era of equity and equality for all.

I wonder if it’s arrogant (by asking it is?!?!?) to think that I feel fairly confident at the moment… I must stress at the moment because.. (Now this is where I second guess myself)... my mental state…

By building up your brain you can become almost superhuman…. Ubermensch… hmmm…

Is this what is means to be Enlightened?

To understand the cycles of humanity and how they play out for all of the inhabitants on this 3rd rock from the sun… To understand yourself a bit… because it seems that by nature we are afraid of ourselves.. Deathly afraid… and shun any and all light sources that may be shone upon it.. The ability to piece what others are emphasising in the meaning of the words they type on paper or computers or by hand…

The symbolism between things doesn’t have to be given to you at a 9th grade level… which by the way was the average reading level in America. Sorry gonna have to get into some philosophy, but remember… You have the ability if you want to.. You are the one that gets to affect the change…

Stop thinking binary… stop thinking that everything is black and white.. Up and down.. Left and right…

Life is a spectrum… all with in it operate on this idea… and yes I know I sound like a crazy person… but don’t believe me… do your own test… and I’ll give you the fundamental that got me started… with a bit of explanation…

The laws of logic… not the presuppositional bullshit version….. Remember life is all about cheating… understand this and you’ll know what I’m talking about.

The laws of logic or the laws of thought…

These are fundamental to thinking in a CRITICAL thinking capacity… the words you say have specific meaning, but also the structure of you words.

Example… any story you tell about yourself is called an anecdote. This means personal stories, and is generally viewed as a poor means of evidence.

So when you tell a story from a personal opinion (all stories are personal opinions), this is anecdotal and should be viewed as being skeptical. What is skeptical? Skeptical mean you are unconvinced of the veracity (that means how truthful is it) of the claims.

You don’t know if the story your friend just told you is true, so you remain skeptical. You are unconvinced if it is true or not. So how do you know? Well there are a number of pieces to this puzzle…. Why do we call it a piece of the puzzle… because each “piece of the puzzle” is all the little dots of neurons in your brain firing off.. And then another.. And another.. It’s amazing!!!

These little microelectric impulses….. In that thick ol noggin.,, protecting that squishy melon of yours…

The piece of the puzzle that forms over time in your block of current accessible memory… science is easy… but you, again, are the one who decides… how you will affect the change..

The conscious and unconscious are working all the time… the motor skills that kick off writing this whole thing… I really am torn on whether I should stop smoking mota or keep it up.. As is the current state that I am in…

Each piece of the puzzle… each life experience.. There is no paint by number cheat sheet for this sht… life is the biggest thing you get… the biggest opportunity you have by going around and making it just as good for those around you as well.. We are one species decimating the life on this planet… and we only have one planet. We are our own worst enemy…

But yes… the laws of logic.. They will help you to form better thoughts/questions and help prevent you from being so gullible, taken advantage of, and more… I’m 1000000% positive about that…. Though not Aladeen +.

Claims can be a number of things.. But here are the basics…

Start with the laws of logic…

I have a feeling at some point I may cringe at the above…

I went through a number of things.. Also reminder… I don’t think this book will help those who any curiously inclined.

Also life is about living somewhere in the middle… sure you’ll have your extremes, but they are limiting in the quality of life you can live.

Also I do notice a sense of contentment… I don’t feel burdened per say like I usually do.. Though again.. Current emotion.. It’s sort of a self awareness week… or should I say slow evolution … but what was the catalyst?

I can’t even begin to wonder where… I do have some tribal instincts that I need to take inventory on.. Not too mention a bundle of other things.. And continue on this journey.. Because that’s the only word I can think of at the moment.. Trek doesn’t seem grand enough.. Expedition seems like it has an end..

I do feel good at the moment.. Things seem clear at the moment.. I have a self awareness that I haven’t had previously.. And I know I have things to examine.. Some unpleasant things I imagine as well.. But I know I’ve been contemplating everything around my purview.

No man is an island unto himself….

Don’t trust your senses…

Question it all..

Even what you hold dear..

I was thinking about a YouTuber - Non Compete.. I think he’s a mismash of communism and left leaning libertarian.. Which gets me to think I can sort of see, but don’t see how absolute liberty can be of benefit… this could be an error in my view about said ideology… now.. I see that if we are to view society as an always evolving entity that goes through cycles, and we have a ton of information about life currently… why not use that knowledge to devise a system that uses the best of everything with the outliers as extreme examples.. You’re aiming for general harmony.. Mutual benefits for everyone…

Knowledge is a lot like Capitalism, in that whatever has the most , controls the most.

Capitalism is no tied into the human experience that some would like, that the Economics of and in themselves have compassion, liberty, and fairness as core foundational principles. This is as from the truth as it is from one end of the universe to touch the other, likened to the 4 corners of the globe.

The ability to have critical thinking skills as has been developed through the laws of logic being independent and true as can be seen. Absolutism is only due to your lack of imagination. The only reason we have “limits” is due to the fact that this is what we have OBSERVED to be consistent to date with the data that has been gathered over time and globally. Independently validated and updated as the conflicting new information comes into light. That means there are no absolutes. Just what we can measure and what the reality of the commonly shared universe tells us.

Again if you are hung up on absolutes, you will have a bad time with life.

This was supposed to be the original description for the NS sub Reddit…

In some ways this is my Enlightenment period, having come out of the post Byzantine Empire influenced Dark Ages, exploring this new information from the Greeks and discovering that unexplored territory. Imagining that it is the like the Land Rush in the America's or the beginning steps of space exploration and finally landing on the moon.

Critical thinking, for perhaps a bit of hyperbole, saved my life. Saved me from myself, saved me from people, saved me from my family, saved me from work, saved me in how I can effectively communicate to others.

Too often do we take for granted the ability to communicate. It's one of the first things we do at birth, from your first screams to words to complex sentences. We are also not generally aware of how to communicate effectively, and I'm mostly looking at those who think they can. Myself included, in fact I'll go with humans overall are not good at this.

This is my experience... results will vary.

I don’t know is an acceptable answer only when you have the tools to properly identify it as an answer.

The tools of critical thinking.

Can critical thinking be taught in an effective manner?

Yes, however there is a lot of level setting aka calibrating yourself to reality. Calibrating yourself to reality, evaluating your paradigm of reality with the observable evidence based reality that has existed before you and will continue to exist after you. Knowing that you are prone to bad diagnosi and misinterpretation of data based off your senses. This is why we use things like the scientific method to assess and measure the observable universe. Again… life doesn’t deal in absolutes.. Absolutes are as far as we can measure given the parameters.

Life is a cycle.. An evolution.. On a spectrum of absolutes… Always changing, always adapting..

Life is illusions of the obvious and not so obvious.

NTS-What are obvious life illusions?

We remain in the mire of fear uncertainty and doubt… core emotions for the people of anytime who can reason. Yes, it’s by hook and crook that we are where we are today in regards to technology, but technology doesn’t really change the experience for the moment.

The day I can learn a new skill or experience another person’s thoughts via direct connection implant of some sort. No more virtual experiences, well for some of us.

There’s the part of me that goes.. As dumb as I am… Why are all the others who are aware not jumping on this…

We now have a fairly good idea about people, the behaviours, traits, biases, etc. coupled with understanding about history and how things tend to come and go in cycles, why do we sit back and wait… why do we not instigate the change that is needed?

Is this some sort of Prime Directive going on?? Within the species? To let people naturally experience life with nothing, not to share in these tools of knowledge is tantamount to slavery. If evolution is based on the concept of that with the most ability to adapt, then ethically speaking it is in our best interest to equip everyone with these tools, if need be reinvent society to conform to the evidence that benefits all on this planet.

Degrees of self awareness…

I’m of the mind that there are levels of awareness…

I’m rewatching Dead Poets Society….. I felt it was a good movie to emphasize critical thinking, and being a freethinker.

Now as I rewatch it I now realize that this is essentially a movie about the human experience as it relates to time and place. While the specifics (WASP’s in New England, All boys prep schools in the 50's, and the primary influences of Western thought) may not identify with myself, the themes talked about and exampled have a ring of truth to it.

The aspects of humanity that I have yet to fully explore, music & arts are now officially on my radar. I’ve always had some desire in them… but my lack of understanding (ignorance) had been stifling to say the least…. I could equate my emotions to things I heard and my own assessment of the nuances in music and instruments in a limited fashion, but up until recently never felt that I could express them with meaning… granted I have nothing at the moment to show for. It’s something that has impressed upon myself, this insight into people and myself.

There is a sadness here… a sadness I have been repressing for a long time and I do not know why it’s here.. (because of how I bought into the conformity… how I am trapped from birth at being a part of the conformity. This illusion of freewill that is there from birth and up until… you become aware.

I’m aware… how far will I have for this journey… this journey that I have finally found (I hope - continued self doubt) to be of worth.

This sadness.. Is it my frustration at the process that took to get here… that I feel like I have wasted my life… or the best years?

Absurdist nonconformist?

Nonconforming absurdist?

I was about to emphasize my doubts on this…

Absurd.. Relating to what Camus as already emphasized.

Nonconforming… aka the black sheep of the family. (Not part of the expected data?) The contemporary belief of one who goes against the perceived written & unwritten rules of society, laws, customs, traditions, et al.

Unwritten rules… aka “Common Sense”... usually fall into the realm of social etiquette, especially in regards to public displays of affection, public grooming of oneself, et al.. These will vary from region to region, though would go to argue there are a few that would be almost universal. Nicking one’s nose in public, noisily farting in public, belching, cutting queues or lines, driving abilities and techniques, “didn’t you learn this in school?” or “this is common knowledge”, et al.

The kick is the common sense fallacy. We as a species are severely hampered by this one almost constantly. This is one of those built in things (<---- this is ambiguity.. What things? I have lots of built in things. I’m asking because I need to discern if this is relevant information or not. Relevant so I can attribute it properties on how to associate with the already stored knowledge that I have. Relevant information helps me process information of all types faster and as risk averse as possible. That is the best decision from the actual available data. Example, you are walking down a street and you are approaching a corner that you intend to cross. What bits of information do you need to determine to be able to cross the street?

This is the reality that most people are exposed to, the abnormalities of life. News is generally an emphasis of out of the mundane day to day, the unnewsworthy. It’s through this form we become indoctrinated, early on and by school and home life and our daily experiences. Very rarely do we come across those who have dared to break the mold. To look outside the absurd of it all and take that risk…. That risk of life. It’s through the risk at the absurd that you can provide a momentary fuck you.

In regards to pop stars… most are like tits on a mouse, absolutely worthless but are the continued icon of choice for the mediocre only to beget more mediocrity. Now the icons of pop culture, they are the ones who may or maynot been those bastions of self aware absurdists. To climb out bravely and fly that freak flag. To lay claim to the new frontier, the frontier of self awareness for a society. The pace of which frustrates most I would assume, and the pace of which has been set since before us. Evolution has no time table...

The inevitable is around the corner in a generation or so. The point of no return with complete automation and masses of unemployed soon to be governed by totalitarian regimes all in the name of the Global Corporate economy. This is not some scare tactic, this is not some conspiracy theorists connect the dots to the illuminati type crap. One can see how knowledge becomes used for evil, when those who are the opposite side of humanity control the majority you know there is something wrong.

Yet most don’t see, which is what the science says. That humans as a species overall, really have no justification for existence. Sure there have been a numbered few that have made history. These would be an exception, as these are the rock stars of the spectrum that is humanity. The pop culture icons that span decades, the social leaders that make headlines, the political giants that made demonstrable change during their span.

Good or evil… they all made history. Most of humanity would destroy that and any possible redemption. At least in my opinion. Granted this is just a cursory glance and I will continue to see what the evidence is, the evidence that we all have. The evidence that is backed by careful and methodical peer review.

I doubt we’ll ever be able to come to a 100% in anything, we just have to weigh the evidence through reason and logic. I don’t knows and best guesses all the way down.

I opened a pdf for a BA course in Philosophy from UNC Greensboro and on the side is mention of a society called PBK, Phi Beta Kappa, ΦΒΚ.

I honestly don’t know what to call this…

This feeling of finally being able to read people.. Feel like I really understand the written word so much better. I’m at a loss for words.. I feel a myriad of feelings, embarrassment for one, arrogance as well, almost super human.. In a mental capacity. I can see history unfold, but still am powerless as I was before in certain aspects. I’ll still die.. Sure.. and I still don’t know when.

Happy on the verge of tears whenever I think about it… but sad all in the same.. Because I know.. Most can’t share in this.. Or so I’m lead to believe through science.

But I wonder if we could trigger self awareness… kick start it. Through a revamped type of education. One that emphasized experience coupled by practice. While teaching in a non formal setting in a non formal manner. Demonstration, vary the exposure, kids are starving for a proper education.

How and by the way… I’m usually stoned to some degree.. This doesn’t mean what the stereotype means..

words have lost their meaning but I need words to express myself. When terms have lost meaning and purpose.. When people forget it’s through words that they express themselves.. In happiness and anger… in depression and joy…

To know the spectrum.. To be able to paint with it.. And to know you barely scratching the surface. To use the illustrations from a millennium ago that are just as relevant today. The human struggle, the magnificent dotard of haphazard way.

The fireflies of humanity… the whispers of history… those who effect change.. When you are aware you get to be hopefully the most effective agent for change. It really is a matter of a number of things that I can’t even begin to put in order.. So in nor particular order…

Unquenchable thirst for knowledge.

Grasping the basic fundamentals of humanities, history, philosophy, art, literature, music, science, and math.

Understanding that you are laying a foundation, and this foundation will be an abstract creation of a very very long period of time.
An unassuming mass invisible even to you, even in your dreams.
Dreams are the catalyst for that butterfly effect.
Words are the foundation of effective communication.

Having a fundamental grasp of the human condition through language - both native and foreign, literature about the human experience -I would suggest contrast Contemporary with Ancient texts, poetry and dramatic arts.

An unexamined life is not worth living.

This is both physical and mental.
Greater exposure to different cultures promotes more open mindedness
Taking a mental examination about yourself, a self assessment check.

Avoid thinking in binary terms, yes/no - to, I’m not convinced and as the evidence leads. These are more neutral terms that give room to change.

Realize what’s true for you or knowledgable to you aka Common Sense, may not in fact be known to who you are talking.
Again, knowledge has to be conveyed across an imperfect system, namely humans. Humans are their own worst enemy.

I’m reminded why those deemed the lower species are superior, they actually learn from their mistakes.

They raise their children in the proper knowledge of surviving.

They don’t hold grudges…. Perpetually.

They realize it’s only them and they have to cooperate for all to survive.

Distribution of labor benefits the whole.

Nature is our teacher on how to life, yet we again are a deluded and selfish species.

I’m sorry for being a parent.. For attempting to be one. I didn’t realize the level of arrogance I was capable of. I didn’t know how completely devoid of any proper parenting knowledge I was. I couldn’t see how foolish I was.

I have my own view of this. I see the role that human physiology and human biology play in the development of humanity. From birth to death, we have a fairly good structure in place, granted nothing is 100%, but there’s nothing to indicate that if one goes they all go. That’s the nature of the system. No one discipline is dependent on another. Think of this, assume humanity never changes course on climate change and eventually causes the end of civilization for humanity, sure we’ll probably be diminished to a minor role for a bit, and completely change the atmosphere of Earth forever. The Earth will still be here and the Universe will go on.

I’m rabbit trailing… I truly am convinced that people should be properly educated in the role of parenting, training of some extent, & sterilization for those who willing opt out of parenthood.

*** I need to evaluate if parenthood is a right… I feel conflicted… while on an evolutionary standpoint -- fuck you, I fuck what I want. On a moral standpoint, you really are doing more harm than good with your complete lack of parenting knowledge - but god damn it you’re gonna be a better parent than your parents…. By never looking to what the evidence says because who else would know better than you?

See this is the trap.. Absurd?... biologically you are a slave to your emotions/hormones and want to fuck.. Well for a good percentage of the population.. This is the evolution part that has been passed on down since well before the Greeks were pederasts.. By the way history is filled with all sorts of weird and fucks up things.. It’s part of humanity.

I keep coming back to this spectrum thing.. This idea about using critical reasoning skills to take a self assessment, resetting your thinking by starting at the beginning…. My questioning things led me down the path I am.. But I can’t be the only one to think.. This is obvious.. Will I ever have an original idea come across my mind, though most likely not even recognize it?

Why do I feel special.. Like I’m supposed to do something.. Like I’m wrestling with this “desire/want/feeling/emotion” to try to put this thought about life being on a spectrum.

Looking at the foundations for knowledge, carefully looking through the remains of what we have and what we know and how we know what we know.

How do we determine what is what in this experience of life, this reality that we all share?

There are foundational truths to how to think and form proper arguments, how to effectively communicate - when someone talks like they think they know it and how to spot they are full of shit, and how to effectively reply and let them know they are misinformed aka full of shit.

Another absurdity…. The feelings you have for your animals even knowing they gave more than you did. The sorrow for their absence and the longing for the companionship, which is of a unique quality that only they can provide.

Why are pets not viewed as a form of domesticated slavery?

And just like that… If we could lower abuses by law enforcement by adopting a public surveillance of its self. Utilizing the public coming forward with crimes that can be video documented (ex.: - porch pirates), what’s that phrase where you get the public to get your data or your work completed? Something sourced… social engineering? I don’t know..

There’s a post on a local sub reddit about a crime being committed and due to the at home technology that captured the act in question, a local news channel was able to get a confirmed plate number. Which led to an arrest. Here is a non violent crime being resolved with minimal police effort and clearly resulted in an effective arrest.

What other ways can we look at this???

It also appears there are gatekeepers all the way down….

Is the fact that there are some universal abstract conceptions absurd.. Is logic absurd… is reason?

Is it absurd that it’s absurd?

Is philosophy absurd?

Life is.. So therefore yes?

Nostalgia is a drug… a drug that keeps you chained to the past.

The songs of youth course through your ears to give you the euphoria of nostalgia...the memory of a memory from long ago that seems to be a distorted nirvana.

Am I listening for the memory… one that is just a chemical reaction at this point. It’s not like I’m experiencing it all for the first time again. I’m not encoding the experience in to my brain… chemically binding to the cells..

The emotions of feeling betrayed? Sad? Longing? Missed opportunities? Misled? Cheated?

Emotions to others that come up… that feeling at that moment.. That moment when it just felt right..and you didn’t want it to end. Everything was new… and you were dumb as bricks.

Should people be better educated? Should we emphasize effective quality education that is a combination of experience and available current evidence. Core curriculum of what is means to be a human and explaining it at all ages. Critical thinking, humanities, arts, music, science, languages, history…..

Crap.. why does opening this door cause so much sorrow? Tears? I’m at a loss for words.. I feel like there should be more here to all this…

Really.. Wasted Years from a kids choir gets me going… I understand Depeche Mode..

Actually I think I know why… so pretty much any genre of music that was emotionally poignant for me when I grew attached to it would be a trigger… those songs you have in the back of your mind that are always able to evoke that memory…. Or what fragments remain.

I make attempts to avoid this area as it just seems pointless, to relive something that isn’t here.

I get that these years… formed me to where I am today but I’m getting nothing of value to dwell here.

Fluctuating in flux flummox

Mon -17 june 2019

A bit tired.. The late night dinner didn’t settle well and scurrying to the bathroom to deal with reflux is not what I had hoped for in a restful night’s sleep. Flying a bit on autopilot, looking at what needs to be done and shining a light on the dark recesses that are known to harbor the shadows that constantly lurk about.

I do feel a bit flustered, stressed, nothing overwhelming but noticeable nonetheless.

The constant vulture thoughts… that constantly circle in my mind. Job security, well being, healthcare, home life… these are the general buzzards of annoyance.

I know I have a job ending at the end of July, but no indication as to who/what/where/why/when. Will the job go longer? Will they want to keep me on? I don’t know.. Part of me doesn’t care.. I still struggle with the apathy, the depression, the nihilism.

How capable are people of change? Are there only those few examples capable? I’m believing laziness plays a big part in it. I’m tired.. Need a nap.

The incoherent ramblings continue…

Woke up.. Continuing the assessment of the state of being… feeling bleh.. Crappy.. Deathy…

Not liking the situation… and not a whole lot I can do.

Not like I can just switch careers… start over with a snap of my fingers.

Really having an uneasy time on the emotional roller coaster… this is what bugs me. At the moment.. The instability of my emotional states…

***Rise makes a good biscuit, but the coffee is crap. Brown acidic water…

So tired this morning…

Randumb thoughts

We are some sort of experiment… the mental instabilities are part of the process. Things that we cause us to deviate from the norm parameters…

Ugh...the euphoric like thought process from a few days ago seems to have dissipated.

I feel angsty and irritable and short tempered… honestly if I could go on a superman like killing spree I wouldn’t.. Maybe a destructive spree.. Something to make a point and proclaim my authority over everything.. My way or the highway. It’s for your own good. Not so much of a Thanos thing, but root out the corruption and the fucktard leaders of this world.

Use them as an example… what ya gonna do about it?? I’m superman.

Turn everything ass over end… completely reset reality.

How do I change my thoughts… how does one change knowing to not knowing? How do you care about things you should care about even though you really don’t.. You’re so filled with apathy and “eeyore” - why bother.

If people could be convinced of the need to critically think.. Not rely on themselves as being the foremost authority of what they perceive being what they think it means off the surface.

Why is there something vs. nothing?

One thing I’ve noticed, or not.. Is the absurdity of what is known as gatekeeping.

the activity of controlling, and usually limiting, general access to something.

This is sort of a no true scotsman scenario… a good example would be telling people how they should act or behave or support another group and what is isn’t acceptable. I’m reminded of an article I recently read that came from the AHA around the do’s/don’ts of support the LGTB+ while at a pride event.

One of the reasons why I haven’t off’d myself… I secretly hope to actually win the lotto in some fashion that I could retire on.

However I’m beginning to think that my super duper levels of bad luck are forever written in stone and it will never happen.. But I secretly hope to which keeps me going some how.. But I don’t know.. Maybe after one piece finishes…

So it’s been a few weeks since any meds… around the 6th I think…

My brain still feels fuzzy…

Last day is july 5th…

No clue what’s next.. No idea of anything.. I really don’t have any answers.. No tricks up my sleeve… zero.. At the end of the road.

I’m bitter.. Depressed, mad.. Apathetic.. All of the above.. I’m numb from trying… against a situation that’ s damn near impossible to win against…

How we are nothing but fools.. And it really is just a fucking joke….

Self assessment moment…. Not doing well.. Feeling pretty much near the bottom of the barrel.. Not wanting to continue more or less.. Very defeated.. Again..

Again.. Seems like it’s always a rinse and repeat scenario. I want to sleep forever… i’m done..

Not a good day… I’m literally on the verge of tears. I’m done. I really don’t want to continue.. I’m tired of the crap of this existence.

I hate most things… things that contribute to the misery of this existence. People, societies, and the ignorant masses comfortable in their delusion and want to make it reality. I’m tired of fighting against my thoughts and emotions. To continue on in a hopeless endeavor.

Fucking sissyphus.

And to think I was on the other side of this not that long ago.. Wanting to continue.. But not having a means to continue.. What’s the point. I have nothing left to put forth with.

Oh my gosh… this DNC debate night 2 is hilarious..

My dick is bigger.. Noo my dick is bigger…

Nooo.. my snatch is tighter!!!! Noooo meeee!!!

So I have to say I’m a 100% Bernie supporter… Even though I don’t agree with him 100%... He’s focused on ending corruption in the US and holding those who have raped it for decades…

I know why I like Marianne Williamson… she reminds me of an over acting guest actor on Remington Steele.

Most of the other actors are interesting.. Aside from Hickenlooper & Bennett.. And that guy from Ca.. Chad Chadington.

So the thing I wanted to talk about was how I’m feeling better. Compared to this morning… it’s these moments… these are the most debilitating. I get to a point that I’m done.. And I want to end it all.. But I really don’t… I don’t want to… I hate this..

Now watching the first night…

I noticed there was no mention about the Hong Kong thing… interesting. Glad to see there is no “internet interactive” nonsense going on…

Who’d a thought the purple one would get me teary eyed… love these Originals…

Damn this emotional bullshit…..

Again.. Random thought.. And I lost it because I got distracted watching Manic Monday..

Is it this longing for the past that I hold back.. This knowing that if I stay there like I did.. It would still turn out to be the empty void it always once after it happened. I cannot relive the past… why does it make me so sad.. Why does it haunt me….

I’m watching a video on FB from Vice about feminism from both the left & right view points… more or less. I don’t like the freeform identity per say as you don’t have a clear demarcation.

Vice needed to define or refine the left/right definitions and had the guests indicate where they are in regards to them. I bring this up, just as Destiny identifies as a pro life feminist (Independent politically). I feel… feel, this could indicate possibly significant variation within the L/R spectrums. Destiny identifies as an Independent, though with a pro life element that makes one ask is she “left or right” then? Again what are the definitions for “left and right” I never heard them.

Any who, L’Wren has opened her mouth again and I’m flabbergasted gobsmacked yet again.

I firmly believe you can through critical thinking skills analyze speech as it’s being said and respond back with superior reasoned responses. Understand this, poorly applied principals can and will have negative effects. The objective is to get the person you are discussing a topic with to see the error of their thinking. Not bully them with terms and concepts that they know nothing about. Ultimately getting them frustrated and or shutting them out from seeing what you are teaching… I mean beating into them. Avoid this.

The socratic method attempts to get the interlocutor (the one you are asking questions to) to see the true meaning or motive behind one’s actions, decisions, how they process customs and social behaviors and more. (Or so I’m guessing.. I may be way off base on that assessment).

Then again maybe I’m just seeing something that isn’t there…

L’Wrens anti-semetic comment needed to be checked. She needed to provide evidence on that shit. No free passes talking shit about someone not in the room.

Little research and I guess she could claim the issues with the Women’s march but I think she’d being duped. The Women's march made an incorrect decision in brand marketing. That is the relationship with Farrakhan and another incorrect decision in brand marketing by not condemning it there on the spot along with quitting.

Then again some of the other complaints are just as valid. (I struggled with that sentence, critical thinking skills in action. I was thinking yeah but are they valid. This is not taking their concerns as being legitimate, sorta like what rape victims go through when they attempt to report. Being questioned if the events truly happened. Sure it’s easy to see things from a logical informed view and not so easy when trying to see the reason why they have a different viewpoint. There’s a phrase I recently dug up… lie - to - children.. I had been thinking about how it seems that parents are lying to their kids but it’s not really their fault (unless they are a critical thinking self aware individual(s) - there may even be other caveats but this primarily). How do you bottle wisdom so that when the user imbibes it is effective?

Damn you Willy Shakes!! All the world’s a stage…

So I’ve come to a revelation.. I’m slowly excavating through history. It’s fairly entertaining… and by entertaining I mean mind satisfyingly entertaining.

Is sugar is bad for you pop culture is sugar for the mind. Consume too much and it’ll just rot your brain. Moderation is best.

So community/utopia/socialist idea…

In order to heal this nation you need to do the following.. Well at least here’s a high level thinking of what to do. Detail out an infrastructure revitalization plan starting with modernizing and expanding the following, but not limited to:

Roads and highways
Water and sanitation
Power grid
High speed Internet - rewire the US, including AK/HI/PR & territories.

All new construction must meet the following criteria:

Multi-task - wherever possible in the design. Have outflow water generate electricity is an example of multi-tasking.
Incorporate new technologies
Scaleable
Think future proof or continuous improvement
Reusable/recycled materials
As close to 0 environmental impact (this is an objective)
Future tech
Renewable energy

Revamp rural economies

USPS banking
Invest in rural economies
Revamped education

Sad to say but 8 years for President is crap… Let's say we actually hit the jackpot and get in a progressive that manages to shake free from the last vestiges of our puritanical ancestors and work on a future for all for tomorrow starting today! 8 years is barely enough time to get this going. I’d say 16 minimum, but I’m more likely to win 3 major lotto jackpots in a row than this to ever happen.

Think about it…

How the hell are we going to get an even playing field as long as the government is corrupt as it is. Nothing will ever get passed and we’ll be stuck in this cycle of get nothing done. This is how an empire falls… getting nothing done. Shit policies. Holy fuck.. To be able to see this amd how it all plays out in real time is pretty fucking amazing.. Despite being scary as fuck.

Additionally I have grasshopper level powers at the moment and can’t snatch the pebble from Master Kan’s hand.

If that… all I know is that once you get this knowledge and can tie everything together, applying critical thinking skills. Things make a lot more sense… well they are still absurd but know you have this uncanny ability to read people like a cheap book.