happy

Holy crap... I love being here in spite of the shit show it is...  Yes early.. yes honeymoon.. 

I know if a few things that will hinder all of this..

Food stamps

Physical health.. hip and shoulder issues... Giddy

Things that I can do.. things that are my focus and attention... 

This is what I was hoping to be for my kids... I can actually try it this time.. for the grandkids..

I don't think I can but think I can position.. I don't want to bs myself I know this is not going to be a cake walk.. in the least.. I'm playing against a stacked deck, loaded dice, and a trick wheel.

Life is a gamble one way or another...

The birds of a feather shit... I need to reinvent myself.. a new incarnation.. can I have a phoenix like moment?

Fucking imposter syndrome... I have something I think tho.. for real fo real...

I have to dev it and push it..  myself.. the balanced approach of life, left of center. 

Balancing chaos

What are the key moments that initiate change let alone a desire for change? The curious mind.

I love learning... I fucking hate school but I love learning.. 

How much of college equates or translates to actual degree related employment in said or related field?

Is college just entry level basics of reality and the skills needed to survive?  

The problem with education is that not enough people realize how important it is to survive and thrive cohabitating with a clear science based approach rooted in compassion and the the well being of humanity and seeing the numerous examples of how exploitation is a recipe for extinction.

That being said? Is humanity bound by the curse of evolutionary traits that are required but also detrimental to the whole if humanity. Yet humans rarely learn for lecture alone.. and notwithstanding personal painful experience of all that one does through life.

Education in philosophy, the ability how to think... Not what think are vital skills for all humans capable. To assume that all people can is nothing short of sisyphean. But any idea beyond the now is always sisyphean. 

If I can think it is it possible?

Flying purple pigs??

I will say yes. Just because they currently exist does not mean that in some evolutionary timeline they don't.

While not a part of mine is a reality to say they are not possible seems to violate something in me. Something is in me that seems to indicate that if I can think of it then it is possible in another reality irrespective if it violates this reality. Now here's something? Do the laws of physics apply the same in every other possible reality or do they vary as well? So whatever could be imagined could always have a bajillion different variations, again akin to the spectrum wave length... 

Do waves that we measure in the standard model are they subject to the wave function in quantum physics? Are they related and I am missing details?

How waves intersect...