Today it starts...

 So I sorta figured that b is playing games and figure sure why not have some fun and do the same...

I'll annoy her with bullshit.. made up stories about myself or whatever I make up..

I do feel sorry for what she has gone through I truly do. I had a complete breakdown when I got home after the Oregon visit last year. Holy shit.. 10 long fucking days of wanting to be dead.. fuck it was scary and frightening and HOLY SHIT... I will break down again if I think about that..

THE FUCKING TRAUMA SHE HAS BEEN THROUGH... 

And she knows it and uses it to get her way.. I think that's could be why she's giving me the side eye bullshit.. because she knows she shouldn't but she does.. wow... right there. right now.. me.. jugdey mcjugderson..that was really fucking dated and lame. Too stoned to figure anything out but catching myself in my tracks..

She adapted to her environment as best she knows what she does is to protect her subconscious interests... I get there's probably some other shit I'm not privy to as well.. but I've met these girls.. their are my past girlfriends.. those that go as far back as hell not girlfriends in the dating sense but pretty much all girls are going to have to deal with some sort of sexual assault in their lifetime.. a lot of it not getting reported from what I understand. The girls down the street from me.. the Palomino's come to mind... the girl I went to school with who made their daughter run naked in front of me because it was her birthday.. birthday suit connection there somewhere was the reasoning if I recall.

Pretty much every girl I knew in in-patient adolescent/adult psych. 

I don't know.. so I can't make really any judgement on her aside from how she is currently treating someone who assumed there was a renewed friendship or is this not the case?

I read behaviors... that what.. her behavior indicated to me she's insincere about that and could care less but is maintaining some sort of facade for who knows what and I could care less really. Seriously... She thrives on chaos and being the center of attention in all things. She'll deny this, and she'll feign some excuse that could be argued a number of ways to suit her needs.