I trademark that name...
Maybe it's a bit to 1990's.
The Pandemic of 2020?
The Great Quarantine of 2020?
All I know is that this is one of the worst things to go through that a person could experience.
Just a taste of this, has made me appreciate humanity just a tad bit more. LGBT+. slavery...
the continued horrors man pits against himself.
We continue to do things detrimental to ourselves... all in the guise of liberty, democracy, capitalism...
its fucking insane is what it is.
People need fucking serious boundaries and a system that actually works and it works by having EVERYONE participate in it... mandatory.
Actually this post was supposed to be about how crippling my anxiety has been and how missing even one day with no weed is almost unbearable.
I hate this... I hate having "this crutch".
Granted I enjoy most mind altering substances... but I think I'm at the end of the road for enjoying anything in a meaningful way or experience going forward.
The anxiety is annoying, as after everything I have already been through. Hell my life.. one fucking thing after another.. I have not had a peaceful fucking decade yet.
I'm not suicidal... I just would welcome death if it came.
I find myself on the verge of tears... even with weed and edibles... this is more proof of what I've been experiencing.
The self isolation
the withdrawing
I'm crying during Naruto... where Sakura is asking Naruto to get Sasuke.
seriously.. I'm fucking worn out. Now I GET THAT FUCKING MEANING...
ding.. stoner light just clicked on...
I'm emotionally worn out.
But once again.. yeah for weed, because it's really hard to claw at the walls inside your head anymore than i already do.
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