Got up... took a shit..
Put dishes away...
Made cafe sua da hot...
smoked a bowl..
made breakfast...
No major pandemic updates...
Cleaned up dishes...
Smoke another bowl...
Walked again for over 2.5 miles..
smoked another bowl...
and we find ourselves here.
I'm super excited to see how things turn out in 90 days, 6 months, 1 year, 5 years.
Fuck I need tweezers.... one more week...
Monday, March 30, 2020
Thursday, March 26, 2020
The most excitingly boring event to take place in generations.
Tomorrow will be a week since lockdown...
At what point do your rights are they are enshrined in the BoR become null and void during a pandemic?
I get that it's a pandemic and the last thing we really should be doing is providing weapons and ammunition during a time of possibly apocalyptic proportions. Seriously the only way this year could get any worse is if world enslaving aliens come down from the skies.
I had a glimmer of hope that maybe the world could join hands and defeat the space invaders, but people are apparently unaware of the norms on "social distancing" in the Covid 19 moment.
Surreal, life as we've come to know it today has stopped.
Most are probably on the internet, and trying to figure out how to keep the food and not have to wait in line at the store. What is this USSR?
At what point do your rights are they are enshrined in the BoR become null and void during a pandemic?
I get that it's a pandemic and the last thing we really should be doing is providing weapons and ammunition during a time of possibly apocalyptic proportions. Seriously the only way this year could get any worse is if world enslaving aliens come down from the skies.
I had a glimmer of hope that maybe the world could join hands and defeat the space invaders, but people are apparently unaware of the norms on "social distancing" in the Covid 19 moment.
Surreal, life as we've come to know it today has stopped.
Most are probably on the internet, and trying to figure out how to keep the food and not have to wait in line at the store. What is this USSR?
Tuesday, March 24, 2020
Quite dull
Society has become quite dull nowadays.
Here we are in the midst of a viral pandemic and everyone is being compliant for the most part.
If anything now would be the time to make some noise.
Then again I'm a bit punchy at the moment.
The world seemed ready to burst at the seems not too long ago... how a week changes things.
Here we are in the midst of a viral pandemic and everyone is being compliant for the most part.
If anything now would be the time to make some noise.
Then again I'm a bit punchy at the moment.
The world seemed ready to burst at the seems not too long ago... how a week changes things.
Monday, March 23, 2020
For All Mankind
Finished watching season 1...
Very slow burn character driven plot, that is filled with enough tension till your sprung like a coil on the last episodes.
Really good acting for the most part, especially from miss tight ass - if i can hate your character via your acting you are doing something right. Karen Baldwin is the character... the play by the rules, USA A-OK, blah blah blah...
Who comes to terms with reality via Cobb's husband.... a great friendship is made and an excellent juxtaposition of characters.
There actually are some great moments, last episode I think it was Deke's line about, ---- something now that escapes me.
It was one of those oohh.. wait...
tip of tongue...
about how you see things... especially if we have a tendency to not see both sides.
No that wasn't it...
crap... Now I'm not even sure if it was Deke who said it...
Very slow burn character driven plot, that is filled with enough tension till your sprung like a coil on the last episodes.
Really good acting for the most part, especially from miss tight ass - if i can hate your character via your acting you are doing something right. Karen Baldwin is the character... the play by the rules, USA A-OK, blah blah blah...
Who comes to terms with reality via Cobb's husband.... a great friendship is made and an excellent juxtaposition of characters.
There actually are some great moments, last episode I think it was Deke's line about, ---- something now that escapes me.
It was one of those oohh.. wait...
tip of tongue...
about how you see things... especially if we have a tendency to not see both sides.
No that wasn't it...
crap... Now I'm not even sure if it was Deke who said it...
Friday, March 20, 2020
Covid 19
Here is is 2020, I'm in the midst of a life transition and then this shit happens.
I'm mostly at a place where I feel very comfortable (mostly - Newt) in who I am and I generally have a feeling of I "think" I know what's going on.
What's going on... Now I have Marvin Gaye stuck in my head.
Oct of last year my oldest boy went off the deep end, packed his shit and left for Ca. Now he's inpatient in Riverside Hospital waiting to be transferred to a mental health facility once they find a bed. Leaving Hayden and Kat to pick up pieces.
Marriage of over 25+ years is over, the woman I married no longer being the woman I married. Strokes are a bitch even mini strokes... then again she never was the inquisitive type. Ended up being her mother whom I wouldn't wish upon anyone.
Oldest twin is frozen in his own fear of life and what not... I'm powerless to help. He's smart but not experienced... ugh I'm really starting to hate the 20's. Arrogance abounds in that age range.
Youngest is.... we'll see. He's slated for Air Force Reserves full time... no date for boot as of yet. He's smart, but very emotionally distant... maybe reserved is a better word. Dry humor, sarcastic.
Then there's T and the grandkids... sigh.. that's another can of worms right there I tell's ya.
What will be the new normal after all is said and done.
Hmmm... need to go for my walk after I mow.
I'm mostly at a place where I feel very comfortable (mostly - Newt) in who I am and I generally have a feeling of I "think" I know what's going on.
What's going on... Now I have Marvin Gaye stuck in my head.
Oct of last year my oldest boy went off the deep end, packed his shit and left for Ca. Now he's inpatient in Riverside Hospital waiting to be transferred to a mental health facility once they find a bed. Leaving Hayden and Kat to pick up pieces.
Marriage of over 25+ years is over, the woman I married no longer being the woman I married. Strokes are a bitch even mini strokes... then again she never was the inquisitive type. Ended up being her mother whom I wouldn't wish upon anyone.
Oldest twin is frozen in his own fear of life and what not... I'm powerless to help. He's smart but not experienced... ugh I'm really starting to hate the 20's. Arrogance abounds in that age range.
Youngest is.... we'll see. He's slated for Air Force Reserves full time... no date for boot as of yet. He's smart, but very emotionally distant... maybe reserved is a better word. Dry humor, sarcastic.
Then there's T and the grandkids... sigh.. that's another can of worms right there I tell's ya.
What will be the new normal after all is said and done.
Hmmm... need to go for my walk after I mow.
Thursday, March 19, 2020
Back at Kent State with the.... National Guard
So they were called out recently... Ca is on lockdown so to speak starting at Midnight.
hmmm... This is getting exciting.
hmmm... This is getting exciting.
If Joy Division & the Cure had a love child...
The Twilight Sad...
holy fuck this band is amazing.. beyond amazing.
I really need to take some serious time and listen to an album or four non stop.
Sad, No one can ever know... Simply amazing, they've managed to capture many of the sounds from both and including this newish familiar sound. The haunting lyrics of Sick and the structure of that song are really beyond words and now I really want to study music even more so. Sadly I never had the attention span for an instrument, but I am very much emotionally involved in what I like.
Post Punk being the pinnacle of favorite music style.... tie for Punk/Metal.
holy fuck this band is amazing.. beyond amazing.
I really need to take some serious time and listen to an album or four non stop.
Sad, No one can ever know... Simply amazing, they've managed to capture many of the sounds from both and including this newish familiar sound. The haunting lyrics of Sick and the structure of that song are really beyond words and now I really want to study music even more so. Sadly I never had the attention span for an instrument, but I am very much emotionally involved in what I like.
Post Punk being the pinnacle of favorite music style.... tie for Punk/Metal.
Tuesday, March 17, 2020
8 miles
in 2 days... my feet are killing me and I need much better shoes than these flimsy 20 buck pos'
So 4.09 miles is over 1.5k calories... supposedly. Will need to stop stopping by the donut shop on this route.
So 4.09 miles is over 1.5k calories... supposedly. Will need to stop stopping by the donut shop on this route.
Wednesday, March 11, 2020
Just a matter of time and conditions...
So the WHO just declared it a pandemic...
Really was a matter of time till something came along (biologically) and fucked up the status quo. The petri dish just needed to mature.
Amazing... as Huell Howser would say.
Really was a matter of time till something came along (biologically) and fucked up the status quo. The petri dish just needed to mature.
Amazing... as Huell Howser would say.
So let it be written...
So I'm pretty sure there are a good number of people around the world right now who "seriously believe" that the covid-19 shit is the first (or subsequent) of many events to take place to usher in the end of the world.
Just depends on your flavor of nuttier than squirrel shit fundamentalist. I say let it unfold as it should, more than likely it will result in a more totalitarian state for all. Fuck we are already there, at least the foundations are. The more we just let people be dumb fucks, everyone should be allowed to pursue their dreams barring harm to others or themselves. Yes I'm aware there needs to be deliberate and specific language as to the extent and nature of things. Skydiving... fine, jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge... no.
People should be allowed to take risky endeavors, science especially.
And yes I can see the arguments from both sides. Science run amok... Science once again stifled.
If consenting parties agree... barring non consenting fetish/sport type permanent harm.
Words matter.. hence lawyers and shit.
Just depends on your flavor of nuttier than squirrel shit fundamentalist. I say let it unfold as it should, more than likely it will result in a more totalitarian state for all. Fuck we are already there, at least the foundations are. The more we just let people be dumb fucks, everyone should be allowed to pursue their dreams barring harm to others or themselves. Yes I'm aware there needs to be deliberate and specific language as to the extent and nature of things. Skydiving... fine, jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge... no.
People should be allowed to take risky endeavors, science especially.
And yes I can see the arguments from both sides. Science run amok... Science once again stifled.
If consenting parties agree... barring non consenting fetish/sport type permanent harm.
Words matter.. hence lawyers and shit.
Tuesday, March 10, 2020
One step forward... 2 steps back...
Sold the PC...
Enough money for a car payment...
60 day late...30 day late...
Didn't get the job at Disney....
Enough money for a car payment...
60 day late...30 day late...
Didn't get the job at Disney....
Avitas...
My lame attempt at humor or being funny..
So it's been a while.... or that last gram I picked up wasn't nearly as potent as this is. Very racing, though no munchies which is good. Should I have a fish burrito (would need pico - store trip) or an TJ Indian frozen meal.. fish would be fish sticks so.. nothing special aside I have cream and can make chipotle crema.. which is fanfuckingtabulous.
---- edit
My stoned ass was going wtf.. googled.. no luck jogging the mem.. then reexamined... sativa
tick tock... tick tock...
So I've dropped the price on the PC, add the camera and well... nothing still.
Not feeling very optimistic... well in fact I've just sort of turned it all off... not ignore it, as it's right there everyday... not working a job to take care of things.
Seriously... the reality that we live in where you live or die depending on whether you work or don't is straight up bullshit.
My stomach is doing that stressed out shit again... and I have to wait till Saturday before I can pick up again. So gotta suck it up and deal with gastritis till then...
I'd love to go to sleep one of these days (current situation) and never wake up again. In all honesty I don't see myself living that long, I'm so not taking care of myself in a meaningful healthy way.
Now time for that chocolate to help soothe the nerves... just not all the chocolate at once... not high at the moment so it shouldn't be an issue.
I'm worried for everyone else as well... I wonder how much that is playing into this.
fuck... fuck... fuck.... fuck.... fuck.... fuck....
I'm also worried a bit about getting a job... I've reached an age... and level of understanding that I'm short on bullshit taking... in fact I think my OSHA limit is 0 parts per trillion.
Not feeling very optimistic... well in fact I've just sort of turned it all off... not ignore it, as it's right there everyday... not working a job to take care of things.
Seriously... the reality that we live in where you live or die depending on whether you work or don't is straight up bullshit.
My stomach is doing that stressed out shit again... and I have to wait till Saturday before I can pick up again. So gotta suck it up and deal with gastritis till then...
I'd love to go to sleep one of these days (current situation) and never wake up again. In all honesty I don't see myself living that long, I'm so not taking care of myself in a meaningful healthy way.
Now time for that chocolate to help soothe the nerves... just not all the chocolate at once... not high at the moment so it shouldn't be an issue.
I'm worried for everyone else as well... I wonder how much that is playing into this.
fuck... fuck... fuck.... fuck.... fuck.... fuck....
I'm also worried a bit about getting a job... I've reached an age... and level of understanding that I'm short on bullshit taking... in fact I think my OSHA limit is 0 parts per trillion.
Friday, March 6, 2020
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