And the chemically induced state talks yet again....

4 beers later... not a fan of the urquell


I come home convinced (self inflicted most likely) that my course is the way.. but just as Charon demands a fare... so does my life.

I would be dumb to say that I have not been affected by this,...

I have spent weeks arguing against myself...

but it comes back to the desire.. as selfish as it seems.. to live my life on my terms... and at this point I want to be alone.. this is a small world after all. Would be a shame to miss it...


I thought the reminiscence of  family would cure it.. but it doesn't...

I must see this world that I live in.... with my own eyes...



46 yr old me comment - I'm actually looking at maybe a ray of light.... we'll see.