Observations

 So this is the hot topic atm...

https://old.reddit.com/r/videos/comments/qga9hg/george_carlin_on_larry_king_explaining_the_dave/?sort=controversial

And I'm thinking about how I see both sides... I saw the show and it was funny and offense all at once.

The problem that groups and I include any and all groups that either are a minority and have been marginalized or they are groups who feel they are marginalized.Though ultimately it boils down to this, Chappelle is speaking from his "world view", this is a conscious/neuroscience thing about how we all individually perceive the world different from one another and the ideas and knowledge that we have is ever so nuanced that we weigh our perceptions ever so different but generally with in an average more or less. The social cohesion, social psychology and human behavior have additional points on this. Yeah Sapolsky!

So you have one person who is speaking a "truth" so to speak, but for others who are directly effected the "truth" is not what Chappelle is professing.

Truth is subjective in that there's nuance.... Hello there!

And for those that have no clue what that was all I have to say is that it's layered and if you can figure it out... get a life. I jest, only because that implies myself as well. It's layered in that the phrase is not the reference but the character and what they say in the 3rd* movie.

*there's only 3 movies!!

How to be a better human

 I need to research this more... that book by mr sapolsky - behave - i need to get this.

2 lost children

 What Brian more than likely did to gabby is without a doubt unacceptable. There is no cursory reason why either should be dead, but here they are and now we have two sets of families grieving and I having not a single connection with any of them feel heartbroken as well. Though I won't begin to weigh my sorrow against theirs. It just makes me reflect on humanity, on myself.

I also reflect on how I've changed, as this capacity for empathy was never there and I'm always readily available for a burst of emotions should the need arise. 

I don't really want to write more about this tragedy, I don't want to speculate as to the circumstances other than young kids (20 somethings?) caught in the midst of an emotional and irrational irrevocable moment. And like that... forever committed to a path of irrationality.

Having been there (not in that situation) but in a moment of irrational thought and behavior teetering towards oblivion... only to not have it come to fruition... a resigned failure at yet another endeavor. Suicide was not for me... 

Change

 Is change, the thought of one able to mentally manipulate their behaviors and choices in and of themselves, is that something people are conscious of and that they are capable of doing in and of themselves?

Do most people just give up? How important is education? What are some factors around this that could have an effect on it either positive or negative?

Life is a Spectrum.. continued...

 So the idea that I have of life being a spectrum.. and that there is some physics involved (waves/particles/subatomic behavior) that I'd like to tie into about matter and waves and particles and I need to get a better understanding on these topics.. but the concept about .. and it's gone..

damn it.

I really liked the analogy I was using.. 

and by the time I got logged in I had forgotten it.. pencil/paper???

What I want

 To understand enough about the world that allows me to succeed as a human being that is a part of the universe, in the most maximal of all possible ways that I am capable of.

Fuck... that's my frustration at being an ignorant fuck and wanting to know all the things. As I listen to Skip's Variety Polka Show on KSPC.

I'm whelming up with emotion at the moment.. I should say emotions because it's a wave of multiple... happiness, joy, sadness, elation, giddy, silly, and I don't know if I like this Lennon song anymore..

Imagine

OOOhh

ok.. so I have issue with this song being so commercialized I guess.. the song that has an actual fucking message but gets blurred by the machinations of the oligarchy that rules the planet that continues to keep the majority of humanity enslaved in ignorance, fear, doubt, antiquated customs and traditions, along with beliefs.

Busy day today..

Hi ADHD..

and lost phone that night

Fuck bunker sucked.. seriously bent about that.

db 25th Anniversary.. and I'm on acid

 Fuck I'm bored.. seriously bored.. none of the music is even remotely in my wheel house and I keep hearing the sounds of songs i know.. so industrial now has disco DJ's.. this wouldn't be so bad if the music worth it.. it just crappy euro beats with hints of the past..

Ehn... I paid for this...