Trisomie 21 'Take The Shock Away' 1989

Had 3 of their albums.. this one... Plays The Pictures... A Million Lights.. ( the one with the red door and the baby... and that vinyl of First Songs vol 1... fuck religion.

I would never have gotten rid of a majority of my shit if it wasn't for religion.

Trisomie 21 The Last Song

This is my late teens, to today, on occasion.

Dance clubs... goth/industrial clubs. And if you heard this song it was a good night because they hardly if ever played it. So many bands that I discovered later that should have been on the rotation. This band was one of them. It's funny just how much the music really was a Top 10 of Post Punk/Death Rock/Goth/Industrial EDM/Techno/etc... New Model Army apparently should have been included.. they were more rare than T21.

Though I was listening to them thanks to cello Brandon I think... Chris' friend from MIIINNNN-esota. That wonderful mix tape I had.. I think I have the playlist somewhere. This is what sucks about divorce.. and divorce... and moving a hundred times in ones life.

Really FUCK OFF

 I'm on a roll.. I'm so over these "death by a thousand cuts" scenarios. More like one fucking irritant after another. It's like a blowjob with razors.. nope.

Yes they are all little irritants.. (aside from Israel - BDS)

FUCK ISRAEL

 They are on stolen land.. 

Free Palestine!

FUCK PLASMA DONATIONS!

They want me to do another blood sample saying my other one had too much fat.

all done.. all fucking done.. absolutely fucking done..

if I didn't have a job (soon) I probably wouldn't be however.

FUCK TECHNOLOGY

 Gen X...

I'm the transitional generation of analog and digital... and I fucking HATE digital tech.

Sure you can cram more shit in, but when your main product doesn't even work what's the point. Better yet when it's your business practice to make mass produced crap and write off everything that fails. 

FFFUUUUUCCCKKKKKK... so fucking irritated these days. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK..

My damn phone doesn't charge and all signs point to needing a new phone.

FUCK TECHNOLOGY.

Just A Quickie

 Got a job.. woot I guess..

Just posting because I know it's been a while since I have... have been re binging One Piece... 

These joints I picked up in Downtown are pretty tasty. Very stoney.. been a while. I think this is what I've been missing for a while.. something stoney.

Anhywho.. new job.. fuck moving to Texas idea.. lots of plans formulating in head.

oh.. so here's lowdown..

new job, can probably get out of hock this year. Pay off everything.. GA.. snap.. etc.. file bankruptcy.. need a list.. priority list of things.. -PEEPS$$$

vehicle(s).. eyes.. travel... tools... future... school.. JAPAN!! EUROPE!!

also keeping in mind job expectations... can I go 5 years on a contract?

The Cure - The Exploding Boy (B-Sides)

And then there is this song....

Holy FUCK!!

Seriously huge timeframe of youth here..

 

12 yrs old... Jr High hanging out with the 16 yr 8th grader and sneaky out for weekends at a time stealing my mom's car... this whole fucking tape was the beginning for me (Siouxie & the Banshees a year or so prior-KROQ) and the Cure... 1984... Rehab continued with the album version and Bauhaus... Specimen... 

 

 

Today it starts...

 So I sorta figured that b is playing games and figure sure why not have some fun and do the same...

I'll annoy her with bullshit.. made up stories about myself or whatever I make up..

I do feel sorry for what she has gone through I truly do. I had a complete breakdown when I got home after the Oregon visit last year. Holy shit.. 10 long fucking days of wanting to be dead.. fuck it was scary and frightening and HOLY SHIT... I will break down again if I think about that..

THE FUCKING TRAUMA SHE HAS BEEN THROUGH... 

And she knows it and uses it to get her way.. I think that's could be why she's giving me the side eye bullshit.. because she knows she shouldn't but she does.. wow... right there. right now.. me.. jugdey mcjugderson..that was really fucking dated and lame. Too stoned to figure anything out but catching myself in my tracks..

She adapted to her environment as best she knows what she does is to protect her subconscious interests... I get there's probably some other shit I'm not privy to as well.. but I've met these girls.. their are my past girlfriends.. those that go as far back as hell not girlfriends in the dating sense but pretty much all girls are going to have to deal with some sort of sexual assault in their lifetime.. a lot of it not getting reported from what I understand. The girls down the street from me.. the Palomino's come to mind... the girl I went to school with who made their daughter run naked in front of me because it was her birthday.. birthday suit connection there somewhere was the reasoning if I recall.

Pretty much every girl I knew in in-patient adolescent/adult psych. 

I don't know.. so I can't make really any judgement on her aside from how she is currently treating someone who assumed there was a renewed friendship or is this not the case?

I read behaviors... that what.. her behavior indicated to me she's insincere about that and could care less but is maintaining some sort of facade for who knows what and I could care less really. Seriously... She thrives on chaos and being the center of attention in all things. She'll deny this, and she'll feign some excuse that could be argued a number of ways to suit her needs.