Big life change moment...

So at 42 I said now or never...


With a job contract ending on the 30th of June I quit on the 2nd.

Taking a page out of the Spam's playbook I'm betting it all on one thing... selling the house.

We are getting the fuck out of Garden Grove and California with that.


N. Carolina it is...

So needless to say things are a bit on edge at the moment...



but it's all going as it should....

We have the bills that need to be paid being paid and food on the table.. and cash to have coffee as needed.


However someone of the tinned processed meat kind is having a conniption or semi stroke during this whole thing...

Sadly my intake of substance both natural and non have increased just to deal with her...

Truth be told.. I have contemplated splitting once the house sells...


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I still do...

I'm being honest...

However for some reason I still stay with her... and honestly i think she is the same in thought... why the fuck him?



I'm not delusional... maybe fanciful... but I'm aware of the situation and who I am....

If I was a sociopath I might be able to carve something out.... but I'm way too lazy...

I'f I can't do it myself then I'm not interested....

Plus I'm on my 5th Brownie.... as in Newcastle...

Noctis Industria

Cottage Industry

So a lot has happened in the past few weeks... found out I was losing my job... quit my job.... put house up for sale... moving out of state.

Getting a new start on life.... or so I hope..

I have to say.... that I'm very disturbed by how Pam is acting at the moment...

and it's not to say that I can't empathize.. I have my own anxiety issues... it's just she is seeming very... Grandma-y... afraid of things.. life.. change..

Like one that hasn't lived life.... honestly it's had me thinking... actually in some ways I wish she'd leave...

(side note... have been off meds for 2 days... ran out.. back on as of writing this)

It's not that I don't get sentimental... I just recognise that it's silly in the grand scheme of things.. (though I'm fairly hedonistic in my own selfish ways)

Then again I'm 42... 43 in less than 2 months.

My pursuits are definitely or a more (attempting) scientific reason based endeavor... (despite this language I will dig a hole to cook a pig)

I'm a bit peaved with my Bro at the moment... then again I think he was on the edge anyway... the drama with him is amazing... and he's managed to become a perpetual victim. Seriously... not the only one in the house with that psycho... your fucked up scenario is no different from mine... but you just choose to not move on....