One thing that I continue to notice (aside from my always enveloped self obsession) is my moods. Despite rhyme or reason or season for that matter, the little "triggers" that seem to invariably set me off.
Shitty drivers (as I'm speeding through traffic quick to lay on the horn or offer pointless advice on your retarded skills), things misplaced around the house or just when the usually mundane task becomes some herculean effort all of a sudden.
There goes my mood and for what... I haven't made a post in a bit.. and honestly I've been all sorts of out of sorts as of late. Though this seems to be the status quo.... but why? Why do I allow my moods to be so easily affected? Granted I know there are time when my moods are surreptitiously altered by some culmination of underlying events or other feelings that I don't immediately recognize.
Needless to say... now could be another one of those moments.
New year... new shit...
Why should the start of a year make anything significant... why not.
All I know... or at least what has been on my mind the past few weeks. I really hate .... hate... being sick. Unlike when I was a kid when I would feign sick just to get out of school..
And I also know that I'm having some discrepancies with what I want... back and forth with this bs flip flop crap.
Business needs to start... and I need to get that going within the first few months.
So many things to plan and EXECUTE.... it's that last part that I dawdle on so often.
It this fantasies of winning gobs of money that throw it all off.
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